10 years ago, at this very moment I was sitting in a hospital chair waking up from a bad dream. I was 24 years old and next to me was my gran, asleep and peaceful unphased that I woke up. I sat there for a long time trying to think of all the things I wanted to tell her or ask her about. Things I never told anyone and things I just needed a second opinion on. 2 hours passed and I couldnt organize my thoughts. Even though I didnt go to see my grandma much before this, When we were together, it was laughs and never serious. She woke up after she heard me crying. What is with all the tears? she asked. I dont know... I havent cried in a couple years... didnt know I was crying until my shirt started to get wet. Come closer so we can talk. I wanted to see you before I left. Where are you going? You know what I mean Terra. You know I am not leaving this hospital. Our eyes met and we nodded our heads. I want you to know that I am very proud of you. The things you have overcame and things you will overcome. You never cease to amaze me. I thought I would get to see you get married and have kids but I will find a way to make sure you are ok. We have never said it, but know that I love you. I know you dont hear that enough. Make sure whoever you take the time to love knows as soon as you can. You sit and test to make sure they will be with you through thick and thin. I know why you do this, We both know why you do this. I will tell you now, you will go through many heartbreaks because most males wont win your tests or they wont understand why you do what you do. The only advice I can give you is try to make them see and wear your heart on your sleeve like I taught you. You know the quote Better to have loved and lost, than to have never loved at all. Yes I heard it in school once Many will loose you. Let them be the ones that leave. You are becoming a beautiful girl but what makes you beautiful is you are amazing inside. The right person will want to understand you, why you are the way you are, and come to love you. The more stuff you throw at them and the more they will come to love you. Just need to find the one that cant be pushed away. She stops talking like someone turned off a switch. Are you ok gran? Yes. I am tired from all that talking. Be a dear... come back tomorrow at this time. Go home and get some sleep. You live 5 mins away by foot. I will be fine. Ok I will. I love you gran. Love you too .... Gran passed away in her sleep 10 hours later. Whats the moral of this story? Say everything you have to say. Just hope the someone you are talking to will listen. Loyalty is key... then communication has to be solid, then everything will fall in place. *As respect for my gran, please no comments.*
Posted on: Fri, 16 May 2014 10:37:24 +0000
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