3 years ago I had a best friend named Alyssa. We were in 8th grade. Alyssa was the type of girl that kept to herself. But she was depress a lot. And at one time she told me that she cut herself but whenever I asked to see she said no because it wasnt that bad and that I shouldnt worry. But I did worry. I wanted to tell someone so she could get some help and stop harming herself. But I was her only friend and I didnt want to betray her like that. A month went by and Alyssa told me that she had stopped cutting and that she was okay. Things were normal for a while so I thought everything was okay. Not long after that, she went missing. Her parents I filed a police report to find her. But I knew Alyssa very well and I decided to go look for her. I went to all of the places where we hung out. The mall, all of the parks, our secret hide out. But she wasnt in any of those places. I walked home afterwards and thought of where she could be. So I went to look in the last place. I thought she wouldnt be there so I saw no point in looking. But there she was, with a rope around her neck as the rest of her body just dangled down. She wore a white tank top that had dots of blood. Not covered in blood but there was a lot. And black shorts. Then i saw all of her scars. I saw all of her. I fell to my knees and cried. When I finally got the balls to stand up and face that what was in front of me was reality, I found her note. Without reading it I shoved it in my pocket and ran into the house to get her parents. Her parents were practically mine as well. To this very day, I still have her suicide note and still have not told her parents about it. They have enough to deal with. And I still see her parents sometimes at the grocery store. And when I do see them, I go to there house with them to have dinner. There is a special chair at the dinner table in honor of Alyssa that no one sits in. All of the family photos are still there. And everything in Alyssas room is exactly the same. They had such a perfect family and no one would ever think that would happen. I wish that I wouldve told someone about her cutting while I still had the chance. No family deserves that heartache. No one deserves to live with that everyday. I have to live with it everyday. I found my best friend dangling by her neck in a garage. I still vision it all the time. I have dreams about it. But everyone goes through rough patches in their lives and that is mine. Everyone has someone who cares about them. If you ever feel low, there will always be atleast 3 people that will dearly miss you if you go to far and end your life. So think again. And if you read this entire thing, thank you. You are all amazing. I hope everyone has a good New Years Eve and stays safe tonight. -Queerbaitš
Posted on: Wed, 31 Dec 2014 23:41:22 +0000
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