As I do everyday my entire day at work, I have KIRO Radio tuned to enjoy humorous banter between talk show hosts, have up to the minute breaking news that may or may not impact my community, my life...and to mainly have some friendly, sometimes funny, chatter in my isolated office, a place I love to work. Yesterdays breaking news was not the information I needed. The minute of the 911 tapes release was certainly a sad, sad reminder, and brought the event even so much closer. On 10/24...with no track of how long Id waited to further shelter the student who ran to my office for safety, I had a brief glimpse of one of the callers as I quickly transferred my charge to a more secure area. Now, I have more heartache then I thought possible. Theres a voice to link to my vision, the pain I saw intensified by what Ive heard. Damned the press. Sadly, I believe that I have been interested in the same sensational coverage of other school shootings, hoping by listening, I could better understand and console their grief through prayer. When its your school, your office, your colleague, YOUR BABIES....things become so, so, so much different. Maybe thats why I finally broke today......over failing to follow through on my commitment to order pizza for students returning from a field trip. I felt Id let them down, again..... that Id fallen short of a promise Ive made to myself, to never be a part of taking away their laughter, their smiles, their happiness.....and my mother instinct raised her head and said, youve left babies unfed. Of course, I had kids that came and said how it was no big deal, they were too excited from the Interhigh experience to eat right then anyway, how great I am (mind you, Im the old hag that wont let them buy fun stuff when they should be in class or have fines.....and that will never change) and I love them for that......but its like Ive tripped and fallen all the way down to the foot of this lifelong mountain of reclamation and have to start all over again. On a great note, I know my steps wont be without support....longtime colleague and friend Bob Guard surprised me with a visit, some much needed hugs..a few laughs. Perhaps my answer to How are you doing should go from good to Im not sure.......except for my kids, with my kids and for my kids Im always good............ Side note, dont you all wish I could figure out that blog thing so you didnt have to read this stuff. See....the smart ass still lives.....sometimes thriving more than she should. God Bless...MP Strong!!
Posted on: Fri, 14 Nov 2014 05:42:35 +0000
Recently Viewed Topics
© 2015