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I am going to give another personal post for you all today. For those of you who do not know me personally, I firmly believe in Jesus Christ as my personal Lord and Savior. While we do not host sermons during our support groups we are hosted by Northside Baptist Church and allow all of your to freely express your own personal religious views. As a result of this freedom of speech and expression I will share a personal story of mine- Heather Lamp. Today at church Pastor Ronnie Blackwell gave a sermon on Jesus turning to his disciples and asking them if they too will leave like the hundreds of others who left-will you? I kept thinking about this sermon all day today and realized that God has asked me multiple times in my life if I will follow him. My car breaks down-will I place my worries in God and follow his lead? I do not get the job I wanted-will I quit complaining and follow Gods plan for me? My cousin takes his life--thats a tough one. Here is what I realized. God tests us and is constantly asking if we will follow him. God does not make bad things happen though he may allow them to occur. Why? He is asking you a question-Will you still follow me? After Johns suicide I was angry, hurt, and beyond reason many times. Today I still am this way on many days. The difference from almost three years ago and today is that I said yes-I will follow you Jesus. I could have ended my life, dropped out of school or turned away from God. As Ronnie gave his sermon I realized I have decided to follow Jesus and it is through him that I was able to move forward after Johns suicide. Yes I still get angry, I still get hurt. But I have decided to follow Jesus. There is not turning back in this life. To turn back is to give in and let suicide run rampant among our loved ones. Personally Jesus gives me the strength to step forward. I am not here to preach to you. I am far from perfect and definitely not a minister. I have had people ask me time and time again how I could keep going in life much less make something positive of Johns suicide and the violent image of his death. If you asked me three years ago I would tell you that there is no way I could do these things. Ask me today and the answer is the same. I do no do them. I do not make positive the loss of my cousin to suicide. Jesus on the other hand does. He saved me first and brought me to see positive in Johns suicide. I simply followed and there is no turning back.
Posted on: Mon, 29 Sep 2014 03:34:14 +0000

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