I have a real problem with being tired but not letting myself go - TopicsExpress

I have a real problem with being tired but not letting myself go to sleep because I dont want to lay in bed thinking about certain things or have nightmares from my depressed mood. I usually push myself until Im so tired that I actually start losing my mind almost. Like I get dizzy n cant think n sometimes even see things a little. Then I sleep for a very long time. I have zero schedule. I really hate being manic. I really need my meds back. So I can get to a normal life again.