I have started crafting. Yep, at the tender age of nearly 28 yrs this pole-dancing musician workaholic has started crafting-and Im not talking about your average kind of crafting... Im talking real beading bling bling magnifico blow-your-mind kinda crafting-who wouldve thought I can do that too... So, Ive been beading awesome sports bras/tops for dancing performance---step inline to place your order and to avoid disappointment folks! I even hit the jackpot last week Friday: I visited my gran and over a naughty glass of H2O she casually asked whats news... Work, poling aaaand crafting, I replied. She wiggled me through to her sewing room and gave me an entire beer box of beads! (No beer! Sigh! But these days I choose beads over beer anyways----kinda poetic right). So, sitting on the couch this evening, beading after a loooooong day at the studio (pics to follow-orders on request people) I took a moment, paused the epi of Greys and contemplated what the hell a smoking-hot (almost buuuut not-quite-yet 28 yr old) was doing... Beading... Well, ok: its a Monday night. Hmm, not so long ago I was at Keg on a Monday night with my gym card, dopping some discounted shots of tequila so nope-the Monday night card excuse didnt work. Next: theres no dancing tonight... Well actually I popped into the studio to watch, just for a few mins cause I couldnt stay away-so that wasnt it. Sick and unhappy Amy? Nope: healthy as a stubborn pony and the happiest Ive been in a while. So, I used some brain cells and boom: a theory---listen close... I believe we all owe it to ourselves to find our something bright and shiny- I then believe we have to allow ourselves to be brave enough to try - and I believe that if we dont quite get there we deserve to the give ourselves as many times as we need to start all over again. Repeat cycle. Aaaaand repeat. Repeat until you can bead and craft without feeling like a complete loser because you know youre thaaaat cool! Lets apply theory to real life situation: I have always wanted to be a rock star! Music is my great passion-always has been and always will be... But like everything in life, things change and my passion for music has changed-not in a negative way, its just simply different to the 8yr olds dream of all the stuff the music industry really isnt-haha, the truths of being a grown up! And while passions change, so do bigger pictures, destinations and addresses, friends and unfriends-and all of a sudden youre beading! Now heres the good part: perception... I could look at all the shitty things that have happened in a lifetime, focus on the fact that I will have to gym pretty much every day for the rest of my life if I wanna stay skinny or I could be angry with the world because right now I simply dont have enough moola to buy a new car... OR I can be grateful everyday for my new bright and shiny hobby-NO Im not talking about crafting-Im talking about poling.. I get to tell stories, challenge myself, build my fitness and beautiful while loving and expressing music in a different way... I can allow myself to be brave--helloooooo! Lets go back 2 weeks to MPDSA and Evgeeeeeeeeny! And the starting again? Well that part happens every day... There are some days when I lie in bed and look forward to the evening when I will be right back in my club duvet---maybe not such good days. BUT then there are the mission days where I am hopeful and brave and ready, un-sad and whole, on a pole, planning my next story! You see, its not about the crafting---its about creating something brand-spanking-new. Whether it be a friend, a dream, a song or dance or a freaking bedazzled sports bra, it doesnt matter--its literally moving forward from what hadnt been before. So I guess it all comes down to: we start crafting when were ready... Ive been crafting up a storm... How bout you? PS - Yes, Evgeny, I accept... Stop asking already!! Crafting people xxx
Posted on: Mon, 11 Nov 2013 23:02:34 +0000