I remember the times where I was unburdened mentally and physically. I remember the times where time was like that broken payphone that always spit out a quarter. I remember a time where my shoes didnt need an oil change and didnt need a license plate. A time when my only burden was planning my next form of entertainment. Almost 17 years ago, I lived a life that required nothing of me. Today, I envy my youth and wished that I had taken advantage of the opportunities that were available, because today I am overburdened by making up for it. Being a full time employee, full time student, full time husband and father of four, leaves no time for human error or entertainment. I miss my God and I miss my self. I miss being able to enjoy time or even a meal. But I do not miss being a dreamer. That is what I was my entire life. Dreaming and praying for something to come my way and free me to a life where I didnt have to dream any more. That time I remembered rewarded me with nothing. Today, my reward is pain. Tomorrow, my reward is bliss. Tomorrow, Ill be able to say I have fulfilled those dreams of yesterday. My family wont have to work harder like they do today. My wife can be a full time wife and mom, and not a part time husband. My children can enjoy me and my strength, my wisdom and courage - knowing that I am here for them. Tomorrow I can enjoy those who truly love me and wish great things for me. So until tomorrow, until I finish making up for what I threw away, time will not exist for me - that is, because I dont have it any more. My family close and far will soon be able to have me around. My children can regain confidence in my presence and my wife can redeem her self to only what she was designed for. I say this with a very low heart. I miss you all very much and I pray that I can operate as efficiently as possible. So that tomorrow is much closer to today. Elizabeth BaldrichBiskentawi, George Biskentawi, Marilyn Baldrich, Ivan Justiniano, JayCee Cruz, William Cortes, Macho Camacho, Kush Buggatti, and everyone else whom I hold dear... Soon I will be among you, free and wholly. I love you all very dearly and I pray for your well being. You arent forgotten and remain in my heart every day that I labor for a better future. Please, forgive me for not being here today.
Posted on: Fri, 21 Mar 2014 11:39:22 +0000
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