Insert 80 Nakhane: let me go and talk to her. Me: mandiye nam, Nakhane: no, let me do it. Me: but baby- Nakhane: Sihle, please. I nodded as she ran off, chasing after her mother. I decided to go to our room, and make myself scarce around the house. I got there and sat on my bed. I didnt know what to do with myself. I didnt know how I was going to convince Nakhanes parents that what happened was a mistake and it happened once. Well, sleeping with someone is not really a mistake. A mistake is when you take a Maths textbook instead of an Economics textbook, now thats a mistake. My phone rang, it was a private number. I cleared my throat and picked up. Me: hello? Caller: hey, its me. I could hear it was Khitha. Me: you? Who? Her: its Khitha. Andikuphazamisi phofu? Me: Im kinda busy, ubufuna ukuthini? Her: oh, uxolo ngokuphazamisa. Bendizakuxelela uba ndise sbhedlele. I kept my cool. Me: utheni? Her: I dont know. Mna ndizigqibele ndikwi dinner date with a colleague, and the next thing, ndivuka esibhedlele. Me: yho, how are.. Uhm, hows the little one? Her: uright yena, nam ndi right. I just need to rest qha. Me: oh, okay. Her: okay ke, mandingakubambezeli kakhulu. Bendifuna nje ukuxelela lo nto. Undibulisele ku Nakhane. Me: okay, sharp. She hung up. Zimkhitha was really the least of my worries. I wasnt even sure if the baby was mine anyway. Later, Nakhane walked in, with her head hanging over her shoulders. Me: baby, whats wrong? Uthini umama? She exhaled.. Me: baby, please say something.. She came to sit next to me.. Nakhane: kubi. Umama uyenze iBig deal lento. Me: uyenz.. Njani? What do you mean? Nakhane: ufounele utata, and the whole family. Me: the whole... Huh? I shifted on my spot, with my breathing pattern accelerating. Nakhane: everyone now knows. Me: bathini? Nakhane: utata uthi I should leave you. Me: haybo, utata wakho uyithetha njani into enjalo? I got up.. Nakhane: calm down, hes just upset. Me: utata wakho uyakholelwa kwi divorce ngoku? Nakhane: I dont know, okay? I dont know. I took a deep sigh. Me: baby, nguwe wonke maan lo wenze lento! She looked at me.. Me: no really, nguwe! If lento ubungayithethanga e kitchen, none of this would have happened! She let a slight laughter and looked away. Me: see, now we have to deal with your parents. I have to deal with your parents. I went to the bathroom to wash my face. Deep down, I knew I was on the wrong, but I was just looking for someone to blame. I wanted to shift the blame, but that didnt change the fact that I slept with Khitha. I went back to our room. Nakhane was getting dressed in her pjs. I knew she was mad. Me: uhm, baby.. She ignored me.. Me: Nakhane, listen.. Im sorry man, Im just- Nakhane: ndizakulala no mama. Dont forget to pray before ulale. Me: haybo!! You cant do that. Nakhane: I cant? She looked at me.. Me: baby, ufuna umama wakho acinge ukuba siyaxabana? That we sleep in seperate rooms? Come on man! Nakhane: Sihle, instead of working with me in finding ways to convince abazali bam that Im happy with you, you go and blame me for this? Me: Im so- Nakhane: youre sorry, yes. I know! She wore her slippers. Me: awuzokwazi ukuhamba. We cant show the world that were fighting. Nakhane: no, andilwi mna. Khange ndithi yi fault yakho ukuba umama eve le nto. Me: Im nervous man, ndithini ke? I dont want to lose you. Nakhane: okay. She took her phone. I held her hand. Me: okay look, I know Im a jerk. I know I say crap most of the time, if not all the time. But I love you. She rolled her eyes.. Me: I mean it. Can we not fight? Please. Nakhane: Sihle, khawume ndiyolala torho, Im tired. Umama akafunanga nokutya. I cooked for her. Ndichithe imini yonke ndipheka and nobody eats my food. Me: ndizakutya mna, Im hungry. Ndicela ulale apha, well spend the night working on ways to convince your parents that youre happy. Nakhane: but am I? Am I happy? My phone rang. I ignored it.. Me: yes, youre happy. I know youre happy. Nakhane: kutheni ungayiphenduli iphone? I let go of her hand and went to pick my phone up from the bed. It was Khitha. Me: what?? Khitha: haybo! Why uphendula njalo? Me: ndithe ndi busy maan, ufuna ntoni? Khitha: geez, you can be an ass sometimes yazi. Mxm! Me: ufuna ntoni? Khitha: nevermind maan suka wethu! She hung up. Me: mxm, uyandidika mna lo Zimkhitha ngoku. Nakhane maintained her silence. Me: baby, ndicela sithethe. She sat on the bed.. Me: I love you. Akekho omnye umntu onokuze athathe indawo yakho entliziyweni yam. Ukumka kwakho apha would kill me. Nakhane: I love you too, I know what you did was wrong, but I managed to forgive you. Kodwa le yokuba uthi yi fault yam le, andiyamkeli. Me: Im sorry. Those were just the nerves talking. Nakhane: lets not fight, nows not the time. Me: agreed. Im sorry for continuously hurting you. Ayizo njongo zam. She nodded.. Nakhane: lets focus on what were going to tell abazali.. Ingathi noo bhutThami bayeza. Me: okay, mna I say lets be honest. Ndizakuyithetha olu hlobo yenzeka ngalo and how dirty I felt after doing it. Nakhane: and that you confessed. Me: not only kuwe wedwa, kumfundisi wam, naku tata wam. I couldnt keep it to myself. Nakhane: yeah. Me: ndisazisola nangoku ngala nto ndayenzayo. Nakhane: nam Ill tell my parents that I have forgiven you, and that I dont believe in divorce. I didnt get married to get divorced mna. I cracked a smile. Nakhane: I love you.. She squeezed my cheek. Nakhane: qha uyadika sometimes. I laughed. Me: masilale, before you insult me. I took my clothes off and got into bed. We prayed and slept in each others arms. The following morning, my ringing phone woke me up. It was Thami.. Me: Hello? Him: Sphesihle, ndifounelwe ngu tata ka Nakhane phezolo. Whats going on? Me: umama uve mna no Nakhane sincokola ngale nto yam no Zimkhitha. She made a big deal out of it. Him: yho! So sibizelwa ntoni ke thina? Me: andiyazi ke, kuthiwa fikani nini? Thami: ngo 12. Ndizakuqala emsebenzini kodwa mna. Me: oh okay, Ill see you then. Him: ey, niyazenza maan nani izinto. Nizakusithethisa into engavakaliyo ngoku apho. Uze uyazi ke, we are not going to take your side apho. You were wrong and you know it. Me: I know. BhutThami, Ill see you later. Him: sure ke. He hung up. I put my phone away and tried sleeping again. Nakhane: ulele? Me: hhmm? Nakhane: ulele na? Me: no. Nakhane: oh okay, I cant sleep maan mna. Me: ngubani kanti ixesha? Nakhane: ngu 5. Oko bendihleli ngo 1. Me: yho! Nakhane: Ive been thinking yazi.. I was so drowsy, my eyes couldnt keep open. She hit my chest, I opened my eyes. Me: hhmm? Nakhane: did you hear a word I said? Me: uthini baby? Nakhane: hee, hay lala ke. I slept almost immediately. Later, I woke up. Nakhane wasnt in bed. I got up and went to take a shower. When I was done, I got dressed in a pair of jeans, a golf shirt and a pair of sneakers. I called the office and informed them that I wasnt going to bless them with my presence. When I was done, I made the bed. Nakhane walked in.. Nakhane: oh, uhleli? Ootata basendleleni. Me: now? Kanti ngubani ixesha? I checked the time, it was 09:30.. Me: yho! Nakhane: awulambanga? Me: no, ndi right. Ndoyika nokuphuma apha, I cant face umama. Nakhane: u late ke, uthi umama mandikubize. Me: now? She laughed. Me: masiye, andisamonqeni maan yho. We went to the living room, Mama was there. I greeted and she greeted back. I sat on a couch opposite hers. Mama: ulele njani mntanam? I looked at Nakhane, who was sitting next to her mother. Me: ndilele kakuhle mama, ulele njani wena? Mama: khange ndilale mna, ingqondo yam oko ithatha ibeka, ubusuku bonke. I cleared my throat. Mama: andizokufihlela Sihle, ndidane kakhulu mna yile nto ndiyivileyo. Me: ndi- Mama: yima, mamela. I pressed my lips together.. Mama: utata uyacaphuka yena, akafuni nokumamela. Ufuna umntana wakhe abuyele ekhaya qha. I looked down. Mama: andifuni njalo mna. Ewe, ndidanile, kodwa ke noko andiboni ukuba ningade ndithathe isigqibo ngomtshato wenu. Ndingumzali nam, ndiyabazi abantwana bayazenza izinto bengacinganga, ngomso ingangowam umntana esophula intliziyo yomnye umntu. Andikwazi ukugweba mna, mntanam. I nodded.. She kept quiet.. Me: nam mama, ndiyazisola ngento endayenzayo. I wasnt thinking straight. Andiyazi ndandingenwe yintoni. Mama: ndithanda le nto uzibona ukuba wonile and ulucela noxolo. Lo nto ibonakalisa ukuba ufundisiwe apho usuka khona. Asinakuzithini ke izilingo, zikho naphi na. Me: ewe mama, kodwa ndizama ngako konke okuse mandleni am ukumbonisa uNakhane ukuba asoze into enjeya iphinde yenzeke. Mama: nawe ke ntombi yam ndiyathemba uyafunda kule meko. Kaloku bantwana bam, kuba utshatile, lo nto ayithi azakuphela amantombi okanye amadoda phandlapha. Into efunekayo qha kukuba wena mntu utshatileyo uyazi ukuba intliziyo yakho wayinikela kulo utshate naye. Me: ndiyakuva mama.. Mama: masizilumkele ke izinto ezinjena, singaphindi siyive into enjena. Umtshato awufani nesijolo, apho uvuka kusasa sewusithi umntu awumfuni, uyoqala umntu omtsha kwange mini enye. Umtshato unoThixo phakathi. Umtshato awuquki wena nalo mntu utshate naye qha, kukho nee families zenu ezi involved. Zicingeni zinto phambi kokuba nizenze. Nakhanes phone rang, she picked up. It was her father, informing her that she was at the gate, and commanding her to open the gate for him. Nakhane went to buzz them in. Mama: usathana akayithandi into entle Sihle, nani ke sanukumvumela ukuba enze unothanda ngeempilo zenu. Izinto ezinjena zifuna ukulunyukelwa, ngoba ziyawuchitha umzi. The front door flew open and Nakhanes father marched in, followed by two gentlemen.. Man1: bhuti, ungayenzi le nto, akwenziwa njalo.. He was shouting as Nakhanes father walked up to me. He got to me and pulled me up by my collar. Nakhane screamed. He punched me on the face and I fell back on the couch. The two gentlemen held him back.. I couldnt believe what just happened. Like, the man just resorted to violence.. I had no hope in engaging in any decent conversation after that punch. There goes my marriage, I thought to myself....
Posted on: Mon, 29 Dec 2014 21:37:44 +0000
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