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It took me years of excruciatingly hard work to get to a point where suicide no longer needed to be an option held on retainer...you know, just in case my embarrassingly shoddy coping skills completely failed me. Both Feet In was the song I wrote when I finally got there; when life was something I could finally commit to 100%, both feet in. Theres only so many times you can leave yourself at the altar, so to speak, before youre forced to either opt out...or opt in. I just recorded this live version tonight. There have been too many suicides recently within a couple of degrees separation of me. The Russian folk song I tacked on at the end is my first musical memory, as my mother would sing it to me occasionally...One of the few positive moments of a childhood that left me so gutted I wrote a novel of that name and got a degree in neuroscience solely out of the hope that I could extricate myself from the thought patterns, brain chemistry, and emotional black hole that had dominated my inescapable head since elementary school. These days, Im many million miles away from that place. Healing is not just possible, it is critical. Painful, exhausting, frustrating, frightening...but critical. xoxo. https://youtube/watch?v=ALxSG2YcKRk
Posted on: Tue, 12 Aug 2014 06:09:47 +0000

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