I’ve been overwhelmed by the response to the letter I wrote to - TopicsExpress

I’ve been overwhelmed by the response to the letter I wrote to my cancer. Today a lady told me that she had similar emotions when her husband walked out on her. Gd really used me to share a message of hope. I’m just grateful I got out of the way long enough to be of service. I don’t think it is appropriate to go into details, but my boss and I had a very difficult conversation today. It wasn’t bad, but it was necessary. At the end I acknowledged that I knew it was hard for him to talk about what he did and thanked him for his honesty. He thanked me for my reaction. I must admit that I was rather shocked by my reaction. There was a time I would have been very emotional and defensive, but I wasn’t. I was peaceful knowing that we would be able to work things out in a mutually beneficial way. The only thing I can attribute this change to is my bc journey. My level of faith is such that I have no doubt that I will always be exactly where I am supposed to be and taken care of as needed, not necessary wanted. I can’t begin to express my gratitude for this. I have a sense of peace that is hard to put into words. Have you ever been so sure and secure that uncertainty didn’t affect you? That is the best way I can describe it. I realized today that my energy level is significantly higher. I am going to go to the office every day starting next Tuesday. Tomorrow I have chemo and it will be more efficient to work from home since I live so close to the chemo clinic. Alan is picking me up at 5:45am for my surgery. Gd knows how it is going to turn out, so there is no need to be nervous. I decided it would be better for me to stay by myself Thursday night. Otherwise I will feel the need to stay awake and be polite, even though that wouldn’t ever be the expectation. I’m going to ask one of my neighbor’s to just give me a call or stop by and check on me a couple times make sure I am ok and didn’t fall or some other stupid and highly unlikely occurance. I’m sure I will just sleep most of the afternoon and evening. I went to Goodwill after work to get some really loose clothes to wear for the first few days after surgery. I really don’t want to wear the stuff I got for surgery. I am going to donate it as soon as I get time. I’m not a huge Goodwill fan, but North Fulton Charities doesn’t have much if any men’s stuff from what I recall. Besides, today is Seniors Day and I qualify for a 25% discount. When I was checking out the cashier and I began chatting…what a shock, huh? She told me her Mom was just diagnosed with bc for the second time along with brain cancer. She lives in Columbus, Ohio. My heart dropped. I couldn’t imagine being that far from my Mom when she was diagnosed with her lung cancer. Working at Goodwill is most likely not going to provide enough money for her to go visit her as often as she would like, if at all. I so wish I was in a position to offer to buy her a plane ticket. It hurt my heart. She was about the same age I was (24) when my Mom was diagnosed. I will add her Mom to my prayer list…that is all I am capable of today. I’m going to end here. I haven’t had lunch or dinner yet and need to go take care of that. Also need to do laundry and a few other things in preparation for surgery. I would appreciate a an extra prayer the next couple days if you can spare them. Thanks and hugs!!!