Maybe its lack of sleep or the fact that Im physically and - TopicsExpress

Maybe its lack of sleep or the fact that Im physically and mentally wore out financially everything falls on my plate the man I married 9 years ago decided a year ago he didnt want to be married the hurt the pain consumed me and few month later I had to accept our children being around this new girlfriend. Hmm must have had something already going on with her before he left because her phone number was all over the call log. I was basically forced to meet this girl January 1 st. Truly Killed me. But was a great understanding of the life I had was 100 % gone the man I loved with all my heart fell in love with someone else. And recently he took her back to to Iowa to meet friends and family truly still hard to except. Thats my home town my family and friends. Im staying strong moving forward excepting life, I got a better paying job work 60 hours a week started seeing someone. Had to move out of the home I was in lived with a friend and her family for a couple a months and finally got my own place 4 weeks ago which was a 3000 dollar deposit.. Trying to move forward. I pay everything my self little to no help from there dad claims he has no money even a few times has asked me to bring food for the kids because I guess no money no worries Ill make sure the kids have food. Not keeping the kids from him there relationship with their dad is more important to me than money Ill just work harder. Im just tired but Ill be ok and the kids are happy and no mom and dad love them. But I swear even with the money Im making Im still struggling to make it.. wish I could set up a Go Fund Me Page some days. But I no thats not the answer. Contiplateing selling my TV, Camera and 3 lens. I dont no but mentally and physically Im ready to break.. Please just pray and continue to pray for me for strength to keep moving forward. So hard to to stay confident that I can do this on my own.