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My life in a nutshell: Lets say a guy named Fred is attracted to a woman named Martha. He asks her out to a movie; she accepts; they have a pretty good time. A few nights later he asks her out to dinner, and again they enjoy themselves. They continue to see each other regularly, and after a while neither one of them is seeing anybody else. And then, one evening when theyre driving home, a thought occurs to Martha, and, without really thinking, she says it aloud: Do you realize that, as of tonight, weve been seeing each other for exactly six months? And then, there is silence in the car. To Martha, it seems like a very loud silence. She thinks to herself: I wonder if it bothers him that I said that. Maybe hes been feeling confined by our relationship; maybe he thinks Im trying to push him into some kind of obligation that he doesnt want, or isnt sure of. And Fred is thinking: Gosh. Six months. And Martha is thinking: But, hey, Im not so sure I want this kind of relationship either. Sometimes I wish I had a little more space, so Id have time to think about whether I really want us to keep going the way we are, moving steadily towards, I mean, where are we going? Are we just going to keep seeing each other at this level of intimacy? Are we heading toward marriage? Toward children? Toward a lifetime together? Am I ready for that level of commitment? Do I really even know this person? And Fred is thinking: ...so that means it was...lets see...February when we started going out, which was right after I had the car at the dealers, which means...lemme check the odometer...Whoa! I am way overdue for an oil change here. And Martha is thinking: Hes upset. I can see it on his face. Maybe Im reading this completely wrong. Maybe he wants more from our relationship, more intimacy, more commitment; maybe he has sensed - even before I sensed it - that I was feeling some reservations. Yes, I bet thats it. Thats why hes so reluctant to say anything about his own feelings. Hes afraid of being rejected. And Fred is thinking: And Im gonna have them look at the transmission again. I dont care what those morons say, its still not shifting right. And they better not try to blame it on the cold weather this time. What cold weather? Its 87 degrees out, and this thing is shifting like a garbage truck, and I paid those incompetent thieves $600. And Martha is thinking: Hes angry. And I dont blame him. Id be angry, too. I feel so guilty, putting him through this, but I cant help the way I feel. Im just not sure. And Fred is thinking: Theyll probably say its only a 90-day warranty...scumballs. And Martha is thinking: Maybe Im just too idealistic, waiting for a knight to come riding up on his white horse, when Im sitting right next to a perfectly good person, a person I enjoy being with, a person I truly do care about, a person who seems to truly care about me. A person who is in pain because of my self-centered, schoolgirl romantic fantasy. And Fred is thinking: Warranty? They want a warranty? Ill give them a warranty. Ill take their warranty and stick it right up their... Fred, Martha says aloud. What? says Fred, startled. Please dont torture yourself like this, she says, her eyes beginning to brim with tears. Maybe I should never have...oh dear, I feel so...(She breaks down, sobbing.) What? says Fred. Im such a fool, Martha sobs. I mean, I know theres no knight. I really know that. Its silly. Theres no knight, and theres no horse. Theres no horse? says Fred. You think Im a fool, dont you? Martha says. No! says Fred, glad to finally know the correct answer. Its just that...its that I...I need some time, Martha says. (There is a 15-second pause while Fred, thinking as fast as he can, tries to come up with a safe response. Finally he comes up with one that he thinks might work.) Yes, he says. (Martha, deeply moved, touches his hand.) Oh, Fred, do you really feel that way? she says. What way? says Fred. That way about time, says Martha. Oh, says Fred. Yes. (Martha turns to face him and gazes deeply into his eyes, causing him to become very nervous about what she might say next, especially if it involves a horse. At last she speaks.) Thank you, Fred, she says. Thank you, says Fred. Then he takes her home, and she lies on her bed, a conflicted, tortured soul, and weeps until dawn, whereas when Fred gets back to his place, he opens a bag of Doritos, turns on the TV, and immediately becomes deeply involved in a rerun of a college basketball game between two South Dakota junior colleges that he has never heard of. A tiny voice in the far recesses of his mind tells him that something major was going on back there in the car, but he is pretty sure there is no way he would ever understand what, and so he figures its better if he doesnt think about it. The next day Martha will call her closest friend, or perhaps two of them, and they will talk about this situation for six straight hours. In painstaking detail, they will analyze everything she said and everything he said, going over it time and time again, exploring every word, expression, and gesture for nuances of meaning, considering every possible ramification. They will continue to discuss this subject, off and on, for weeks, maybe months, never reaching any definite conclusions, but never getting bored with it either. Meanwhile, Fred, while playing racquetball one day with a mutual friend of his and Marthas, will pause just before serving, frown, and say: Norm, did Martha ever own a horse? And thats the difference between men and women.
Posted on: Sat, 05 Apr 2014 14:31:39 +0000

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