Part III Well as soon as Sam was well enough to be in a car for more than just a few min we started attending church in Hemet at Faith Tabernacle We decided to make the move to Hemet and Continued to travel all over So Cal for various drs appointments for Sam I Could not work as he had a few different appointments every week and was not allowed to drive yet and No one would work with my crazy schedule. We were living off of 545.00$ a month a family at church helped us get in contact with a family members of theirs that had a lil 2 bed room one bath house on their property they were willing to rent us for cheap and the home being built in 1920 needed some tlc so they offered to buy all supplies if we did the work in exchange for the deposit and first months rent we got to pick all the colors and were having the time of our lives making this lil house our home... We soon found out we were pregnant and we were over the moon excited. At about 6 mos. along we went in for my check up and found out the baby had no heart beat and the dr made us an appointment with a specialist for the next day. We left that office devastated but decided not to tell anyone anything until we knew for sure we were praying so hard and went that night to church for a revival that we were having with a special speaker Shirley Jones from Australia We had never met her before and still had not told a soul about the news we had received earlier that day. when we arrived at the church we were greeted by our church family and Shirley a 72 year old woman that could run around a church like no bodies buisness... She looked at Sam and I and said "Do not mourn the loss of this child " the lord has a word for you tonight … We stood in shock how did she know I mean we knew how she knew but didn’t know lol later that night our word came and we were once again told " Do not mourn the loss of this child in 1 year and 6 mos you will become pregnant again with a boy and his name is to be JOSIAH" We left that night in awe but still hoping that the baby was not lost but to our dismay the next day at the specialist it was confirmed that the baby was gone and went to the hospital to have her taken. one of the hardest days of my life. after that day Sam wasn’t quite the same and kept pulling more and more distant and though over the last several mos he had periods of shutting down since his injury there was so much joy in-between I didn’t see it coming but 2 days after my birthday on august 19th 2001 I came home from doing laundry and all his things were packed by the door as I walked through the door he said to me Im leaving you . your taking me to my grandpas tonight in phelan. I was hysterical. I was begging him not to go and reluctantly after hours of begging and pleading I drove up to the desert to drop him of I thought he would never get out of the car but he did and unloaded his things and walked in the house without saying a word without looking back. I drove home heart broken scared alone and severly depressed over everything. I stayed in Hemet as long as I could I worked at a telemarketing company in paris until sept. 11th 2001 when after the devastation and the world at a loss for people in the attcks they wanted me to still come in on 9/11 and call people to sell them something and I just couldn’t do it. I moved home to my moms house and got a Job at best buy. in Oct. My Grandma, and I in one car and My mom and step dad following in their car behind we sent out for my cousins wedding in AZ. Over the 2 mos we had been seperated I called him every day band begged him to tell me why he left what did I do what could I do to fix it and to please come home but it wasn’t working I prayed and cried every night I asked God if this was what was ment to be to please take the pain away take the heart break away but everyday hurt more than the day before. The day we left for AZ I spoke with Sam and he said he needed to talk to me I told him I was leaving for AZ I would call him when I got to the hotel and we could talk in person as soon as I got back All the way to AZ my Grandma and I talked she told me don’t give up hunny if your heart gives 1000% and you trust God what will be will be and hes a dumb A** if he doesn’t want to be with you . Lol gotta love my TITA!!! ( Background My Tita at this time had been battling stage 4 ovarian cancer for about 6 1/2 years ) We were driving to Pheonix with 9 full oxygen tanks in the trunk and one in the back seat a trucker who was trying to pass another truck on the 2 lane hwy pushed our car into the revien about 5 ft down and the way we went off we should have flipped the car we spun around and were on 2 wheels at times before the car came to a stop my mom in the car behind us watching in horror. we got out of the car held eachother and knew that God had to be driving the car as we went off we both had our eyes closed and holding eachothers hands only thing that happened was a flat tire and the driver of the truck just kept on going. We finally arrived to AZ and I couldn’t wait to call SAm we talked for hours and though I was enjoying the time with family I never got to see I just wanted to get back to find out what he wanted to talk about . that sunday We made it home at about 11:30 pm and I hoped in my car and took off to go meet up with SAm We talked for h we missed eachother and and all the gushy stuff and he stated he wanted to get back together and work things out I asked what or where did it go wrong what can I fix to make it better why did you run when it seemed nothing was wrong he wouldn’t answer me and said I did nothing and that he just needed space. at that point just being 20 I didn’t care I loved him and he was coming home that was enough for me... Stay tuned for part IV please continue to share this page .
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