Recovery So my therapist and I discussed my slow recovery and how the meds are only in place to take the edge off. I’ve come along way, but I’m stuck on trying new things and starting to build a new life for myself. So in an effort to work towards this, I made a new vision board for myself with short and long term goals. She reminded me it’s like trying vegetables for the first time as a kid, you may not like them then, but year’s later taste buds may change. If I don’t like the things I do try, she said at least then we can discuss the reasons why and then come up with newer ideas. My progress has been stunted because of my inability to let go of my past. I like to remain in my safe zone. I thought relationships were an answer for a long time, but it turns out I need to be me and not get caught up in that pattern of hiding again. I am so afraid of succeeding and far surpassing what everyone believes me to be now. What if I fail and have another nervous breakdown? I guess the truth is I’m already failing if I don’t try. When I fell the last time in 2009/2010, I truly lost all my confidence and it has slowly spiraled downward from there. There’s a lot I need to do before I get back up to where I was and I know there is no way around it all. It stare’s me in the face every day. ~MLG/Mistress
Posted on: Sun, 28 Jul 2013 22:39:08 +0000
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