So I want to get deep on you for a minute. Maybe this will touch somebody that needed to hear it. For the last month I have been dreading November first to hit us, and it is literally days away. On that day I lost a huge part of my world. I didnt think that I would ever be the same person before. And truth is, Im not. Im not that same person that I was before he passed away. Im a totally different person, a totally better person. And losing him I learned so much about myself that I would have never known. He was the one I turn to when I needed something, anything. And for the first couple years I realized I could not turn to him to ask him about this or that, and it killed me. But I also realize that if I dwell on the negative that I would stay in that hole forever. It was a deep dark place that it took me to and I didnt like myself being there. Do I miss him? Hell yeah I missed him. Do I wish he was still here? Well, you know the answer to that. But let me get back to the person I am now, shes brand new. I learned that I could pick out a vehicle without calling pop. I learned that I could weather a storm without calling talk to see if we needed to go in the basement this time. I learned that I could do things without calling him. But most of all I learned that I have a lot of strength within myself that I never knew was there. I learned that my mother and my grandmother and my brothers was full of the spirit that we would have never seen before. pop taught us a lot of stuff growing up, and even in death hes teaching us lessons now. It doesnt take one person to hold a family together and it certainly doesnt take one person being gone to make them fall apart. I feel now we are closer than we ever were before and we thought we lost our glue. So on November 1st instead of grieving the loss of him, Im going to celebrate the new me. Because without his help, she wouldnt be possible.
Posted on: Sun, 26 Oct 2014 17:15:37 +0000
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