So Im learning that people dont like my honesty. Ok. Here it is. Its not always easy to watch your child struggle. Even harder when you KNEW it could be avoided. Even more so trying to support them when you KNOW how hard it is going to be for them to challenge themselves. Day in. Day out. Constantly weighing whether or not what the lesser of two evils are. To let them try and watch them get crushed if it doesnt work out. Or to tell them know and crush them before it starts. Im sorry we as her family are human and want to see the HAPPY Em. The Em that is smiling and joking. Not the Em that is searching for words or melting down. Does this mean we HOLD her back? Does this mean we tell her we dont believe in her ability to overcome? No. Not at all. We put aside our own feelings and we support her choices and decisions. Praying that whatever happens she can handle and embrace. She knows sometimes there is just a little part of us that wants her safe. Not to fail, but safe. It may seem like we want her to fail the way it sounded but absolutely NOT AT ALL. We just want her SAFE. And you know what she confesses to us... there is a little part of her doubting whether she is ready but she has to TRY. And while this time it may hurt a little she KNOWS that she may not be right for the parts or ready for it. So a little piece of her thinks the same way. It is human. And we are sorry if we corrupted your view on us. But sometimes the truth is where we face realities and push forward. Which is what we are doing. Pushing forward. Every second of every hour of every day of every week of every month of the year. Often with no respite or ability to regroup. We are tired. We are worn. And we still keep going. Doesnt that count for something?
Posted on: Mon, 22 Dec 2014 18:32:49 +0000
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