So. Today I am 65. I dont know what I imagined myself doing, or my Life being ...at 65, but I can assure you that this was not it. Before i embark on this sordid tale, I would like to thank everyone who sent me Birthday Wishes today. I do so appreciate all the warm wishes and the love everyone showered on me for my birthday. I am so Blessed. I am so thankful for the people in my Life that I have actually met and some known for years in real Life....and for all you newbies that I have taken into my heart, and head, and Sphere of Happening. You keep me informed, you keep me giggling and loling, you keep me Real, and you give me a place to vent and rant and rage from time to time. I dont know what I would do without you all. In the coming weeks and months, I will be going through another major adjustment in my Life. Not only have i reached the Golden Age of Retirement.....i am taking on another momentous task;... that being the care and comfort of my 87 year old toddler/Mother. I have just come to this decision in the past few days; the evidence continues to mount that she can no longer function on her own. I spent my Big Day today with Mom. She had made a drs apointment for unclear reasons (unbeknownst to me) for today at the exact time that her schnauzers were scheduled to resume grooming after a two month hiatus (groomer delivering her new daughter)... They were pretty shaggy, and we had made the appt two months prior. When i found out about the doctors appointment, i was irked because I needed to see Moms doctor anyway, and make her aware of the increasing dementia, the lack of motivation and feisty stubbornness at actually working to make herself feel better (going to physical therapy etc.). So...im bound and determined to make both appointments at 1PM, come Hell or high water. Mom says she just wants to die;....... it appears either the anti-depressants are not working, or she is not taking them. At any rate, she needs a baby-sitter, and a cheering section, and a task master, and a Friend. and I guess I am it. She needs to have someone come in and begin to clear away the years upon years of collections and Stuff. I have been pushing her in this direction for some time....without much success. I see now I am going to have to just take Charge,,,and do it. She will probably fight me, tooth and nail, but it has to be done. I will get power of attorney and take care of business, and consider it my job for the foreseeable future. I detest confrontation, and would rather chew nails than argue.....its not going to be easy. I did this for my father, in the mid-80s...after his losing both his legs to diabetes, and a stroke, and a heart attack. He was in a wheelchair, of course. He had lost most language to the stroke, but surprisingly, the curse words flowed like butter off his lips. He was also stubborn, and had to be watched constantly to keep him out of trouble. Between all that and running my new business single-handedly, and being a single parent....i sure had my hands full, back then. Now, with mom....i have a lot of time on my hands with winter coming on. Its odd. Next door to my house on this Place is my grandparents Place...and in that house resided my favorite Grandpa Tom, and Grandma, Rosa,.... who was an invalid. My mother ( and us kids) took care of Grandma Rosa, way back then. I guess I learned about family taking care of family at an early age. So now..its my turn, with Mom. How odd, that I ended up back on this Place, this Place I couldnt wait to leave when i was a young thing... taking care of my Mother, just as my Mother took care of her Mother, on this Place. Patience has been a lesson I have struggled with in this Lifetime.....I guess this will be the acid test lol. Wish me Luck all you that Love and Care about me, and Wish me Well. I may whine and cry to you all from time to time,,,,I hope you will take it with a grain of salt and just let me Be. Sometimes Over Whelmed. Sometimes pissed off Sometimes Doing Ok. Rarely Estatic. Today was close to Estatic in some ways tho....all the love and good wishes you all sent me. (((hugs))) I will sign off now, and collapse. Tomorrow is a new day...and little Flash, the newest orange/stripey rescue kitten is scheduled for her speuter and shots at 8AM in the morning. I will hopefully be back to Abby Normal by then....and catch you all on the flip flop. All in all..... A most memorable Birthday. In no small part to you all. .
Posted on: Wed, 17 Sep 2014 03:15:22 +0000
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