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Tears of sorrow, tears of pain, tears shed from eyes that wont show you a thing, built up walls in a distant stare, wanting to show you, but pretending i dont care, caught up in a web of all these emotions held inside, trapped within memories i refuse to give the time, ignoring what i shouldnt, and hurting people along the way, its my mistakes and my bad ways so why should those i love also have to pay? i ask myself these questions almost every single day, and the worst part about it is that i try so hard to change, but somehow things always end up the same, i swear its like my life is a game and everyones a player, but every one is losing because this is a puzzle only i can put together, i wont stop trying, i do want to change, and i dont care how many times i run in this circle of pain, repeating similar mistakes again and again, i know im not who people perceive me to be, but i will agree i need to change things that cause them to see this person im not, yes ive got problems, everyone does, and i take responsibility for the pain and problems i have caused, but i cant turn back time so why cant we just move on, ill do what i can to make it up to you if thats what needs to be done, but i dont owe anyone anything regardless what i have done, but i do have compassion, i do have a heart, i do ask forgiveness and to be given a new start, im not asking to pretend i havent done the things ive done, all my mistakes are something i am still learning from, so give me a chance, dont turn away, or say and do things to put more un needed bull shit on my name, because yesterdays are yesterday and today is today, but i am not the same, even though others dont see any drastic change, im relying on god and hes leading the way, and i will admit there slow steps to begin, but i know my faults and what i WILL change, i am determind to not let things stay the same, and i claim i am made brand new in jesus christs holly name, because im a child of god and i trust he has a greater plan, even if me or anyone else understands, i just ask for a second chance from my friends and those ive hurt, give me more time, dont give up on me yet, i will keep trying to do whats best, because i dont want to die one day leaving behind confusion and regret, i want to stand in this storm no matter how hard it may get, because i know god my hand and hell pull be through it...
Posted on: Sun, 03 Nov 2013 17:42:47 +0000

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