Today was my hair day. Im good for another week. Little Mama is not having a good day. She is napping now, but she has not been able to make sentences today and cant remember the words for anything. I see the panic in her eyes as she struggles to talk and then the defeat when she gives up in dismay. She kept trying to talk about stories she was reading in the paper but couldnt make it happen. Finally, I said, Mother, dont you think its about time for a nap? She nodded and started to get up and then had such a struggle I thought she was in pain and rushed to help her. As I was walking her down the hall to her room I told her I would get some medicine for her back pain and she said she didnt hurt all that much. Her legs and feet didnt want to work. Probably another TIA, (mini-stroke), I think she has them frequently. She may or may not recoup from this one. I will know in a day or two if this inability to communicate is permanent. No Im not taking her to a doctor and let them run brain scans and x-rays and poke her and try to get her to talk. If it was critical, if she was struggling to breathe or move, of course I would. But right now shes satisfied, shes not in pain and they cant fix her. I pretty much hate this. :( Stopped by daughter and Scouts house on the way home. Theyre going to try and come swimming with me this afternoon. Well see how the day goes. I need to get back to writing now. Im less than a chapter away from done. Keep Little Mama in your thoughts today. My goal everyday is to help her feel safe and keep her comfortable and for her not to be afraid. The rest is up to God. Some days you have to accept that youve done your best, youve fought the good fight and the outcome is no longer under your control. Dont be afraid of what comes next. Its usually just the next step in finishing what you came to do.
Posted on: Tue, 03 Jun 2014 16:36:49 +0000
Recently Viewed Topics
© 2015