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my experiences in ISSB and a few realizations: after getting the green card,many people say that it was easy.But I say different.In there,in those four days,all I did and achieved,all was because of me. And those who couldnt get selection,prepared their own grave. and I had to do my very best there.not easy to be honest,under pressure. firstly Im going to pay a big load of respect to the system of the exam. theyre just perfect.the ground of ISSB,it seemed sacred.after the declaration of results as we were standing in line,I thought of the quotation written over the entrance selector of the leaders,and then I looked upon every single one of us. and yes,I was sure,every single one of us were capable of leading, they didnt get selection for just some fancy words said to the deputy president or the GTO. the dress for ground works are white,and the field being muddy,I was very careful about my dress and my precious keds.but as the tasks commenced and we were working in a group,I forgot every thing else and got on with my mates. at that time it felt like we were meant to do this.whenever a group mate crossed to the other side,I could feel that feel,that ISSB is meant to deliver. and then all on a sudden I realized,my white dresses were looking like something made of chocolate colour,but I didnt even cared. after handing us our envelopes,our deputy president Sir addressed us and gave us a few suggestions. he asked us,gentlemen,can you tell me whats the difference between your green card and your all other previous achievements? we replied sir I got it,just because of myself. actually thats not 100% true.we got it because Allah wanted us to have it. As I was being fair through all the psychological tests,I had a realisation,Im going to write whatever first comes to mind. its because this is who I am.and I am proud to be myself.if I dont get selection because of this, I am ready to accept it.I was real,I was honest,in every single step. about the motivation, before every task,before every obstacle, two faces I love most,came in front of my eyes. I could see my parents faces and I thought,how am I going to tell them after I get out that Ive been rejected? And then I knew, I have to win it,even if not for myself,Ill win it for them. throughout my life, theyve been the best parents and theres been rare moments when I could make then happy. so I knew that I have to do this,have to push myself. I made a number of friends who were mare strangers even a day before.we were staying up all night on the third night as it was our last night together, we had realisations that I think changed our point of view,for the rest of our lives.We were not group mates, nor room mates. we had no reason to stay together or behave well with each other, but we were the closest.people whom we didnt know even just a day before, were the persons who mattered the most. I had friends in every single room, in every single group of the candidates block.on the last night, I was requested by most of them to enjoy the night with them as it was the last.I was moved by this.all those people cared for me,thinking this I had tears on my eyes.all this love and respect gave me one realisation, yes,,I am not that bad. throughout the four days,I ate a record number of 17 ice creams. another thing I did with my heart out was mocking others and role playing.I was laughing my heart out,I was enjoying to the fullest. and my suggestions for anyone going to the ISSB will be,enjoy yourself. not gonna remember the way you slept in there after a few days, are you? I had no intentions to be offensive,but I eventually did the role playing part in every single room :D I was enjoying it,they were enjoying it. and in the end of the day, thats the only thing that mattered. I wrote this long boring stuff as I was requested by Mahir Sadman My friend,another green card holder. I was on the bus going to Dhaka while writing it,so I passed my time :) and for those who dont want to join army,Ill request them please go to the ISSB, judge yourself. and youll see how four days change your life.