ok this is how i see it, Ive given my all to people that have proved to me that they really didnt care in the first place and im not going to do it anymore. this aint no gravy train to jump on. i do things for those that I think deserve it and would appreciate whats been done for them by me and for the help ive given them, but its a testing thing always has been. Ive always put others above myself always and the funny thing is that if i think that Ive caused a problem in my relationship with people i will reach out to those people and try to fix a bad situation and make it better but i have to say that i didnt get that from the people that I thought cared about me the most and it really hurts my feelings, it pretty much proved to me that you guys didnt give a shit in the first place. i shouldnt be surprised it seems to always happen. but Charlie ill have to say that i put my whole life on hold and i didnt think twice about it either cause you were the most important thing in my life and you will always be. but im not going to live forever and one day someone going to pretty bummed, and it aint gonna be me. for sarah: we have always had a great relationship (i thought) and i just felt completely betrayed by you for not helping me with Charlie when your mom caused so many problems when she stayed here and all i was trying to do was help her and you, but the death of johnny, i just couldnt get by that, that she smothered her own brother and then gloated about it like we should feel sorry for her. SHE HAD NO RIGHT. have a great life sarah ill always love you and i really miss bubba. for layla: yea im such a manipulator, i must have manipulated you into calling me when your friend abandoned you when you wanted to come back to live in Burbank and had no where to stay and i let you stay here rent and bill free for the years. yea im a manipulator, where in the hell would you be if it wasnt for me. maybe in new Orleans huh. funny thing is layla my conscience is clear, Ive never done anything but the best i could for you and you shit on me, but thats ok, i hope you have a wonderful life layla try to remember you were my favorite, i always thought of you as a daughter always. for annie: you are absolutely the most stubborn person of the three and i dont blame you, you had a bad hand handed to you and you did the best you could and i only was giving you advice annie cause i cared if i didnt i wouldnt have said a word believe that for sure, i bet you didnt treat mike the way you treated me, house rules annie when you live with someone and its there deal there are rules to follow, remember the 1500 $ i sent you to help you out maybe not huh i did this for you out of the kindness of my heart not cause i was looking for reward, word of advice annie if you looking for reward youll never find happiness. for Jackie: you have to be the most self centered self serving person i ever meet, talk about looking a gift horse in the mouth. i was only trying to help you when i heard you had cancer i was just so concerned for Charlie that her mom might die and she wouldnt get to know you. i would have walked through fire Jackie to make sure you were ok but you have such a warped since of people cause all you think about is what in it for you, i kinda really hope youll get to see your daughter when she gets older and hopefully she wont be hanging out with complete idiots ya know the kinda people you choose to have in your life ie: eric, jim cook mark or that william creep looser in venice and the piece of shit you call a boyfriend now. did you know that i talked to ron once and he was so bummed that you have moved from his house to live with mark bogardus and then he took you back in, sound familiar i feel sorry for the guy, your karma (and itll be self induced by you) is coming and i hope that Charlie doesnt get caught up in it, Charlie has a bright future to look forward to and i have to say that if this is all about paying me back for some kind of injustice that you think i caused you then you are more pathetic than i thought. for kevin: you where truly my brother there isnt one thing that i wouldnt have done for you or your family and YOU KNOW IT, but for months all i heard was i dont want to get caught up in other people drama well you blew that when you called me and gave me the third degree of the situation with Charlie it was truly NONE of your business and you should have kept your nose out of it, if you hadnt of brought it up we would still be talking 5 times a day remember kevin, Ive loved you and your family since i meet you guys. i have never and you know it interjected myself into your family issues especially regarding your children except to help in some manner. im a good dam person and im not going to let anyone tell me im not. Ive meet new friends now and they treat me well. have a great life kev ill mss you but ill remember the wonderful times we had and cherish them, i never forget ever and i never lie ever. for Charlie: i cant begin to tell you the disappointment i feel that our relationship has gone this route, just depresses me beyond belief. you have always been my only focus in life since you were born and one day Charlie you will realize this. i gave up everything for you everything. i cant believe that the fight i fought for you was in vain and just still cant believe it. you have been my anchor Charlie the one that kept me down to earth and i hope that we can find it in ours hearts to forgive and forget. im your dad Charlie and nothing that your mom or sisters say is going to change this. Ive meet some really cool people and would love to introduce you some time. if i have no other choice Charlie i will find my way i always have, im a surviver, I LOVE YOU MORE THAN MY LIFE I WOULD GLADLY LAY IT DOWN SO YOU COULD SURVIVE. there just isnt enough mega bites that can tell you how i feel about you. also i cant believe the absolute humiliation i felt when i called the phone number i thought was yours and it was yours friends phone, i dont deserve to be treated this way, how would like it if someone did this to you, have a good evening Charlie.
Posted on: Thu, 21 Nov 2013 04:16:57 +0000
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