Give me a reason. A reason to feel like Im worth something. Like all my efforts are worthwhile. Tired of being ignored and the lack of communication drives me insane. If when Im talking, it goes unheard or unacknowledged then I simply stop. Outside I grow quiet but inside I scream. I dont ask for or expect every waking moment, Ive even stopped being sure of at least one. I comfort, I try and build up and I listen. whether I care about what has aggravated you or not, I still listen. Yes, I messed up on the beginning. Being silent and aloof creates those situations. Ive done all I can to remedy that mistake and yet I feel it wont ever go away. So afraid to be happy that you encase yourself in silence and slowly faze yourself out of the lives of others. It needs figuring out. Im not going to feel like I do anymore. Im not going to hurriedly hush the children every moment. I agree they need to so certain behaviors but all this my trying to make then blend into your life, to make myself blend into your life has created the issues I face right now. Our home is seldom perfect. They do need to work on quiet voices and handling disappointment among other things, but I think it might be easier if we met in the middle here and each person blended into the lives of others. Everyone has value. Each of us. Lets figure something out and get some sort of normalcy. Change is difficult but we also need to look at the needs of every person and see where they arent being met. It wont be easy, but I am confident it will bring a far better outcome than any of is can speculate.
Posted on: Fri, 28 Mar 2014 22:43:07 +0000
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