11383. We were both in secondary school when we first met. You, the popular, affable boy in a distinguished class and me, an inveterate introvert. Did not know what we talked about at first. Did not know how we even got close. All I remembered that, we worked together in a project, figured out that we had a mutual friend, and eventually befriended each other. Then, we became close friends. Shortly after that, I realized I had a crush on you. It was supposed to be fleeting, ephemeral. I was supposed to forget about my feelings as we got to know each other more. Instead, my feelings strengthened as we spent more time talking and going out and drawing out future plans and imagining our future selves. You are a strangely cruel creature. Cerebrally and verbally quick, yet slow when it comes to relationships. Claims to be open-minded and nonjudgmental, yet is an opinionist. Despises those who play with peoples feelings, yet you are the most guilty. Holding a girls hand, hugging her, whispering small jokes to her, bolstering her confidence with meaningless platitudes, but expecting her not to fall for you, to see you as a mere friend. I fell for you nonetheless. And its been 6 years. 6 tantalising years. I could have forgotten about you. I dated several people, whom I genuinely liked. But I have never liked anyone as strongly as I do for you. Sometimes I feel like you are actually my soulmate. You even said it once that you considered me your soulmate, your comrade, your truest friend. But you simply dont see me that way. Luckily, I am leaving for America next year, as I got admitted into the school I wanted. You are still preparing for your future career (Mr. Lawyer, good luck). Well probably lose touch after graduating. Our paths are never meant to cross again. That means I wont have to bear my unorthodox feelings any longer. Well never be best friends again. But that is for the best. I have never been an authentic best friend anyways. Friends do not like each other. Im sorry. But youll never know this, because you are terrible at English, and you are in a school different from mine. This will forever be my secret, that I have liked you for 6 years. You will forever remain in my heart as my best friend, though. The only person who has ever come that close to figuring me out.
Posted on: Tue, 30 Dec 2014 16:37:29 +0000
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