#1812 I dont know which is harder: being an all-around reject for my not so good looks, or being so attached, thats its harder to let go. Oo na, wierdo ako. Sorry na. Ive had my fair share of failures, but my confidence in my studies came with me as I came to know how much I was capable of doing, or at least only so much of it. And I get above-average grades, and know how to maintain them. Im not afraid to flunk, either. Isang sem na lang na pinapatapos, at isa pang hinihintay dumating, au revoir NU na eh. How I just wished that the very same confidence came with me every time whenever love is in the talks. I liked a girl. I mean, Ive always liked the girl, until now. Shes one year ahead, but the age bracket made the senior feeling go. And darn, shes gorgeous, kengkoy, talented, uber cute, at basta, let the great adjectives flow. And once then, the confidence popped like a corn out of its kernel, then poof. Gone again. And in the end, nothing. Its just that its rather hard to move on. Di hamak na mas madali pang sabihin yang punyetang salita na yan, o di kaya waldasin ang pinaka-iingatan kong ipon. Every now and then, I miss her, and moment by moment, I miss her more. She is one of those few people that Ive had attachment issues with. Slightly anti-social ako eh. And more or less a loner, although I have huge networks of people in and out of the campus -- and yes, even on the corporate world. Hindi naman sa nagyayabang. They just come, and show me great, and accept me for who I am, and voila. Buti nga sa labas ng block namin, at sa labas ng campus maraming tanggap ako. And more often than not, I close myself off to people. At least, its easier that way. Or was, maybe. Ang hirap lang kasi na nabigyan ako ng MMK feeling, tapos Abanger lang pala talaga ako in the end. Maybe, Ill just stay this way. Abang-abang. Ipon na lang ng confidence. Magco-Colgate Fresh Confidence. Baka makatulong. Tapos earworm na lang talaga sa tenga ko yung Speak Now ni Taylor Swift. PS. Freshies, pasensya na kayo sa ibang mga gurami na tulad ko. Pero ayos-ayos din. Minsan talo pa ng iba sa inyo yung hangin ni Glenda eh. Bababa na lang ng hagdan, parang may sunog pa. Tapos buong block nakahara. We just exchange respect with each other. My Kind of Perfect 2011
Posted on: Sun, 27 Jul 2014 09:30:06 +0000