1995 ..CANCER & MY MOTHER ... (My OWN STORY) 20 years back, when I was 26, Doctor informed that cancer reoccurred in my mother. At that time, she was staying with me, in project location to take care of me. My Marriage was fixed in March. She was operated for Breast Cancer 3 months back that with the guarantee for 15 years from one of the best Oncologist in India Dr.Benjamin. When Doctor called me and said this, in his room, I was completely thrown to death like feeling as my mother was waiting outside. It all happened like a movie. I was so young to take that pressure. My Father, Brother & Sisters were in a long distance. I was crying to the Doctor, is there is any way to save my mother. He said it is stage 4, see that she is happy in her last days. Maximum one month. Doctor, you guaranteed, 15 years. Now you are giving one month time. He said, we learned that next time onwards, we should give one chemotherapy before operation. Is my mother life, a learning point for medical world. I moved out of his room, reached my mother. She said, its only cold & fever, we will take medicines, it will cure. Inside my heart, i was crumbled, I do not know, what to do. I hold her hands. Tears were about to roll but I controlled. Yes ma, you are right. Today, we shall go to Madras. She looked back, I know she is sharp. Is there any problem? she questioned back looking deep into my eyes. I said No. I was completely out of my senses. I do not know, how i drove my jeep. No mobile those days. Reached home. From my Land line, called my Father. All that pressure burst into tears, i shared. Silent at that end. My Father understood the problem, the pain i might go. He said, nothing will happen. Start back. I went to my bed room, found my mother with tears rolling but she managed that. Asked me, when we have to start back. I said, I will book tickets, we will leave today. 6 hours were more to leave. She went around the house, where she lived with me. I prayed to God at that moment, please take me now from this world. PAIN .. I loved my mother to the core. How I can laugh so false and act. I was not happy to think about my marriage scheduled in March. Big question, will she will be alive during it? My mother posed herself happy, gave me Kesari & coffee - my favorite. She said, I will hand-feed you. EVERY YEAR, EVERY YEAR.. THAT PAIN.. KILLS ME EMOTIONALLY EVEN NOW. NO ONE... EVEN NOW, CAN REPLACE THAT REAL LOVE INCLUDING MY WIFE OR CHILDREN. No Internet, Even Windows 95 came that time only, so no proper computers. I used fax and spoke with many. I found that in Singapore a medicine by name TRIBALENE was available. Got it here, it was a herbal cure. Toured to many places to find cure. Tried different things. Its a Big story. Extended my mothers life till September. My Mother expired on September, 95. My Daughter was in my wifes womb, that time. I was on work. When I heard the death news, I didnt cry. Because I have cried a lot & lost in the game. LET ME STOP HERE ..... Today I felt so emotional, thought of sharing this not as my mothers story or a personal life. Beyond that, I believe that ALL MOTHERS are like that - For that moment, when they have strength, they do the best to take care of us. Even when the moment comes that the life saving decisions to be taken in case of their health also, they give it to us. We decide the hospital, type of treatment etc., ARE WE TAKING CARE OF THEM, WHEN THEY LIVE IN THIS WORLD? MOTHER IS A PURE WORD OF LOVE. NO REPLACEMENT. EVEN I HAD MISUNDERSTANDING WITH MY MOTHER. But it was temporary. I know, I am happy & life is moving on. But that pain, stays in my heart. The Memories of goodness of REAL LOVE is there. I learned a lot on MOTHER AS CARE FATHER AS GUIDE I have lot to share, but my worst pain and the waves. I have shared. Many would have had experienced this or more than this. BE WITH YOUR PARENTS AS SUPPORT, WHEN THEY ARE WITH YOU.
Posted on: Sun, 25 Jan 2015 07:40:49 +0000