2 weeks ago I was in a relationship with girl that lasted two years. We had our fights where we split up for a while and then got back together. I kept it a secret from everyone because I was ashamed that there were a couple years difference between us and didnt want most people to know that. I never brought home to introduce her to my mum or grandparents or the rest of the family. But we would go on dates to the falls or movies or anywhere else. I regret that I didnt treat her how I shouldve because she was my first true love and I cared more about what other people thought than anyone should. During these last 2 weeks I tried to fix the relationship despite what a lot of people told me to do but I couldnt fix it in the end. At first I tried when I wasnt in control of my emotions and said some hurtful things and was a complete asshole. Because of my stupid ignorant behavior and vulgar comments that came from stupid selfish mental reasons I screwed myself out of fixing this relationship. I hurt her so much with my words that I cant be with her anymore. I tried and did what I could but I guess it wasnt meant to be. I thought long and hard about putting this up here and I decided to put it up for a couple reasons. 1. To help me deal with being sad and bummed out 2. Figured I should do what I shouldve done in the first place and let everyone know about it. No more secrets from me. Relationships shouldnt be something to hide for years. If you get in a fight then you dont have other people to tell you guys if you should keep trying or if its time to quit. I didnt do that of course so I have people telling to me forget about her. Truth is I dont want to but I blew my chance and she doesnt want me anymore. So instead of being selfish and immature Ill quit trying to fix the relationship. I love her still but I cant love her like I used to. I truly hope you are happy and find someone better than me. I dont really want to do that but Id rather you be happy. Im sorry Connor Candice Shinn. I enjoyed every second I was with you. My only regret is that I didnt know I had a angel until she flew away.
Posted on: Thu, 07 Aug 2014 01:48:56 +0000
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