2014 is rapidly winding down and I have been thinking about where I am in my life right now. It is a difficult place. In addition to the struggle with grief that I face everyday from losing my son just two years ago, I have a job that I dread going to everyday.In fact, if I let myself, I would cry all the way to work each morning because of the way they treat employees. I am grateful to have the job because jobs are difficult to find as you get older, but it is frustrating and demoralizing to know that I am nothing more than a voice on the phone who generates income for the company - and if I left, my absence would be no more that a nano-second blip on the companys radar (if that). I am a well-educated, experienced, articulate, professional individual and have held positions of great responsibility in the past. Unfortunately, none of that is recognized or even acknowledged where I am now and I am not alone. There are a number of people whose experience is more impressive than mine - for example - a doctor and an architect. Im not sure why Im writing all of this except to vent a little of my frustration. it is what it is - and not likely to change at least in the near future - and somehow, I will manage. But, I so wish that my life was filled with more promise than just being able to manage. To quote the lyrics from Sinatras classic Regrets, Ive had a few But then again, too few to mention. I did what I had to do and saw it through without exemption. The last line is true for me, but I am sad to say that I have more than a few regrets and if onlys that I have to live with everyday. The biggest one is: If only I had known how to plan for my financial future - maybe I would not be facing the day-to-day struggle that I am now forced to face. I suppose that is the lesson in all of this . . . one that wont help me, but may possibly help others if they are smart enough to listen.
Posted on: Mon, 29 Dec 2014 23:24:00 +0000
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