40 years ago u were born, HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY FAR AWAY DOUGTHER. When u were born, I was…. Fallowing nature‘s promptings , And I was trying 2 b happy, For a few years your presence in my life did it , I was happy looking after you, I loved you, Play with you, Care for you. You gave me joy, and obligations, And frame plus boundaries, And the emergency and urgent tasks Of every day life with a BB , You gave meaning to my life and it was bearable to stay put. You gave me joy and I spread it into your dad too, [He was naturally joyous as a prison door- I was like a bird in cage]. Eventually the heavy cloak of boredom Started to cover my soul again. Where was the lightness that I felt as a teen?. The bouncing hope for fun ,the idea of LOVE as joyful rather than dutiful ? The dreams that guided me in those years of freedom After I left home and b 4 I got married?????. I became restless again, Wanting to find ,again, that joyful edge between adventure and raison. I had to find my aliveness again… And I did . I’m still in it NOW . It cost me dear ,to break the bonds of married life !. It gave me pains and JOYS….. Perhaps equal , 50 %.... Now I have learned to stay on the razor edge of my joy, Between mad exuberance and a joy that sustains me, And as I cruse along with NOT a dull moment, I still miss you. Happy birthday my now far away daughter /sister/friend, What is a few years of separation if we have thousand lifes?. Maman. Ps: The camellia bush that we planted together [16 years ago????] for your babies is greeting me .In the winter every time I open the kitchen door. It is the BEST of all my camellias with its large dark rose flowers [ rose indien ].I made bouquets thinking of us ….you and I ….planting it ….being close….intimacy…that we share and that I miss.
Posted on: Wed, 03 Jul 2013 23:30:03 +0000
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