A moment with Matilda Benches, tables, space. Enough to cater for 30 or more. The Matilda cafe only has one body filling its space. Riding the swing, swaying from drunk to hung over from a brief shut eye that i could capture while bouncing away in what is the matilda cafe. The Matilda Cafe is the place you go to recharge. You recharge your electronics as there are 3 power stations located throughout. Recharge that hard drive with one of Matildas meal options or perhaps just a snack to get you though another hour of bump and grind. What time is it, its somewhere around 1:17am. I can’t really say for sure as we are all now on train time. Train time is processed in stages to allow your system to reconfigure for the final resting stop. I will call the resting stop. What i will begin to call my new home. The last few days or so I wouldn’t say haven’t been the easiest. It all certainly could have gone smoother, then again they could have been worse. Sure in retrospect we could have flown and reached that same destinations in that shame brief time that I napped not too long ago however then again I wouldn’t have had such opportunities to see such characters that life presents to us. The locomotive appears to take away a few simple tasks like sleeping, walking, and even writing. Don’t try and wee fellas while standing. Thats not going to be a good result for anyone. Round 2 perhaps won’t be so much a case of de ja vu. I will try out that drop and meet your there option. Leaving Renee to take the train while I meet back with her sad self at the other end. Certainly it seems those days between now and then will be lighter then we had hoped. A mattress, a fridge and hopefully a working television. More then enough. A simpler life is a better life. Less can go wrong this way. A little more or less then a day since turning 29 I pause as I so often appear to do, I reflect. A pause at times seems to be time well spent however careful that, that pause isn’t a glitch like in a record where it plays they same 2 seconds over and over caught in a loop. I don’t think I took this moment for any real reason except the fact I couldn’t sleep. This is often the case I find myself in. An inability to sleep with an over eager processor to reflect, or perhaps analyse, possibly dwell or obese. Is there any real function or purpose. Have these thoughts changed or allowed me to achieve something that I supposedly had set out to achieve. Most probably I think not. It seems to me we have umpteen periods, points or opportunities. Call them what you will but simply opportunities to hit the reset button. Restart, shut down and start again. This could simply be a nap, a weekend, holiday, birthdays, new years, new days, weeks or months. Write a little goal perhaps call it a resolution. At some point I will reboot and truly run and function the way I had always intended. I will won’t I? Or perhaps I will continue to resubscribe to anti viral software, running painfully slow, sometimes freezing for unbearable periods of time and hoping a restart will change it all. Perhaps know one knowns however it seems it all circulates and has recurring patterns. Are there patterns though you want edited or put in the trash not to pop up announced and actually be free of it. We all know dropping a few unwanted files in the trash can help us run a little better. I haven’t put pen to paper, or often in my case pencil to paper for some time. I can’t recall the last time and I can’t do a search to come up with an answer. unfortunately no google search engine here. It appears we can find almost anything except what we really want. I might not recall when although I know I did. Why is it we know so little yet we know at all.We can find a file however it appears everything it that file is no longer there. I know that it was there and that it was full of concerns. Concerns of making mistakes, saying or doing the wrong thing. However with time I have come to realise not attempting, that despite being only considered one mistake, not attempting or having a go in reality is a title for other mistakes. Its time to let things go, face up to the way things are. Doing that alone could release a whole lot of un needed pressure. I might not be sure of the purpose, whether it be to pass time, to realise some of that over thinking part of my brain functions the same it always has, or possibly to give myself something to do, for a sense of purpose. Purpose is one of those key ingredients to life. It makes us feel alive and live for longer. It gets us up in the morning. Purpose is motivation. Certainly feel that way anyway.Things though seem to change in an instant. From peak to troff. Even if you feel your in a shit storm if your motivated and feel there is purpose you will certainly over come. Lose that driving force and that shit storm will be the tip of the ice burg. The brain, the hard drive, the engine that decides in the end just about everything, will allow and prevent is from just about anything and everything. Time to work out the true power of your thoughts and brain function and perhaps we can change those patterns. Change those thought processes and adjust a few ingredients and we might just be able to find what we are all looking for. Peace, relief and happiness.
Posted on: Fri, 16 Jan 2015 09:49:57 +0000
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