A year ago if you would have asked me to describe myself I would have said Im one lucky person. I have a family that cares about me and wants me to succeed in everything I do. I have three amazingly intelligent nephews who mean the world to me. Two brothers and three sisters who mean everything to me and are amazing in everything they do including raising their kids to be the best they can be. Im a student who loves school and strives to be the best man I can be. I never break a promise no matter what kind of promise it is and will do what it takes to keep those promises. I live my life according to how Im supposed too and even when things get bad I choose to see the good. Now if you were to ask me Id say the exact opposite of everything I would have said a year ago. Life has gone from good to complete shit and its hard to continue with everything I do. I still see the good in everything and I still see my siblings as amazing people and my nephews as brilliant kids but no longer do I have siblings who remain true except for a brother and a sister in law who live a half hour north of me that support the choices I make and will do what it takes to stear me on the right path but others have forgotten how much Ive done for you and Ive forgotten how much youve done for me. No longer do I see myself as a good person willing to do what it takes to prove that I will keep my promises and follow what Ive been sworn to do no longer do I feel that life will remain true and no longer do I have a heart to allow people into because when I do it only seems to hurt not protect so why should I even dare to care anymore Ive hurt the ones I love and I dont feel like I can keep my word to anyone because when I do I set myself up to hurt myself or others by the actions that cause me to follow through on my word no longer can I be true cause Im tired of hurting the ones I hold dear and I doubt that I can ever achieve what I used to be able too. No matter how much I do I fail to prove myself as a caring person who follows what Ive been told to do so maybe its time I lead and step aside away from everyone before I hurt you all again without meaning too.
Posted on: Wed, 20 Nov 2013 02:00:20 +0000
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