After three attempts to have my abdominal MRI today, I finally said enough is enough and asked to reschedule. I already knew that the machines make me have claustrophobic anxiety attacks, but I had my doctor prescribe me a sedative and took it as directed. After getting trussed up for my insertion, I could feel my heart rate exponentially increasing and started huffing for air that wouldnt come. I cannot just get knocked out because I need to hold deep breaths for a clear scan. I have a call in to my PCP to get some ideas on how to deal with this, probably starting with an open MRI and perhaps giving me a stronger sedative. I know I shouldnt, but I feel like a fμ¢king failure. I hope some Al Anon readings and the Serenity Prayer help me feel better. Peace.
Posted on: Fri, 11 Jul 2014 00:50:14 +0000