Ahhh the big build up to the most loneliest day of the year so - TopicsExpress

Ahhh the big build up to the most loneliest day of the year so many people running around getting ready for tomarrow its the same here every year No tree no gifts no peeps to go see or coming to visit us No big dinner plans and no kids to watch open gifts Oh we have a get togeather but its just so depressing to do Christmas like a saterday wile wondering how everybody else is doing it. I guess what bugs me most is when your kids grow up and have families outside your own you never intertain the thought they would spend every Christmas someplace else without you and thats just the way its always going to be. If my Kids read this its not ment to speak ill of you. I fully understand. But it is a bummer to be a grandpa and not have your kids and grandkids around every year. and knowing its just the way it is, All 3 of us will be on eggshells careful to not set off the others emotions wile suppressing our own, But at some point tomarrow my wife will cry. And get me started and I will have to comfort her only there wont be any maybe next year speech this time. I think I will tell her we should make our own plans to try to save some $ up to go do something other than sit here in our pity pool and maybe see if we can get involved with chairity that hands out stuff to less fortunate families on Christmas and maybe start a fun tradition and change this holiday, I know my kids and grandkids love us and we do a lot togeather all the rest of the year. Christmas was allways a day of family and mines allways gone and im so jelous of the people that are with my daughter and son and my grandkids, I want to put coal in all there stockings and bust there Christmas balls. I dont want my kids to ever go through empty Christmas Mornings. But I do wonder if they ever think of what it must feel like to put on my shoes every year. My oldest grandchild is soon to be off doing his own thing and the youngest ones have set there traditions and we are not included on Christmas, It just sucks to spend every Christmas eve and day with 2 depressed grandmas and painting on a happy face. I guess I need to try to come up with a diversion of some kind. so I think I will walk over to our new nabors today and invite them for dinner they are new here from back east and have no family here eather. It could be Merry after all, who knows, yeah this is a Rant! and Im sorry for a bummer rant, But I just had to vent somewhere, We will get over it as we have in the past, and I wont be punishing anyone, Nobody has done us wrong everyone has there own lives and things they have to do to make life livable and happy,I just dident think I would be here at this point in life and made no plans to spend the Christmas holidays just the 2 or 3 of us. every year. just wish that there other families were here in Nevada and we all could be a part of the Day. :( :(