Amazingly this song sums up everything. Cuts straight to the point, without fogging up the truth with verse. Thank you Sam Smith you are a genius with the voice of a angel. This song is very therapeutic and puts a calm over me. So much so, that I dont even desire the truth anymore. It would make me sick anyway. Anyone that knows me, knows I make a lot of dumb mistakes. But I own them, and can admit my faults and errors and learn and grow from them. Someone thats never wrong, suffers from borderline personality disorder. Look it up, it real. They also know I have big heart and can put up with more shit than any fly. Im either all in or all out. My heart is on my sleeve, Im not a liar or a monster, like Im being pertrayed as. I think its funny how people generally always believe the first thing they hear and form a opinion. Shutting down to hearing the other side. Well when one person has a gag order, its real convient.There is always three sides hers, his, and the truth. But people arent ever willing to listen or accept the truth. If that truth portrays there family or friends in a negative light. It doesnt matter what it is or how bad it is. That applies to everyone. Its so much easier to cut ties with the newbie or weakest link. Well guess what, its not my first rodeo baby. Im not scared of anything including death. What I loved most was taken from me, in a very evil fashion. I have looked the devil in the eyes and laughed. But I wanted to cry. I wouldnt ever even conceive putting my worst enemy in this scenario. Let alone someone that I love. I took u and the kids in when u were homeless in MT, with open arms over and over again. All I did was show u love and love u guys with all my heart and soul. Relationship s are hard, but know one is always wrong or always right. U gave up half a year ago. We both know the truth, u shut down atleast to me. Someone with nothing to hide doesnt steal someones phone and never give it back. That phone containing the dirty truth. But even more importantly, it contains all my contacts friends and family. Many of whom I wont ever be able to speak to again. Being homeless has given me lots of time to reflect. Mostly on me almost always paying all the rent. But I thought I was loved as much as I loved my family. I miss the kids. I lay in my car every night sleepless, alone, cold, and confused. I think so much about all the happy times we all had together all the advetures and fun and laughs we shared and the uncondiontional love. But I also wonder how it got to this point? Where did we go wrong? When did love turn into hate? I have given up on these questions and the truth. I really hope u find what u are looking for. Cause I can no longer be the mat, before your door. I love all my friends and family no matter what. Even if u all hate or dislike me.
Posted on: Wed, 19 Nov 2014 05:43:39 +0000
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