An update for my friends who pray for and love me... I went to my chiropractor today. I explained some of what I have been going through. She had me fill out a 6 page health questionnaire. (She actually does some of the things I have been looking for someone to do.) Anyway, the issues point to what I suspected. Adrenal burn out and imbalances hormonally. (Not to mention the regular stresses of my life.) I really want to get healthy, naturally. She put me on two natural supplements. I will see how it goes. I also see my primary care doctor on Monday. I am hoping to get a referral to a Osteopathic Doctor. I really need your prayers. My body is freaking out from all the stress. I cant calm down even when I try. My sleep is choppy, with bad dreams and I wake up exhausted. I have had some hard blows this last year. Lots of things have added up to getting to this point. I wont go into detail about everything...but I dont want to wear a cape. Im burned out. Anxiety is my main feeling, my heart is palpitating. Its not fun. Anyway.. I am recognizing this for what it is, seeking the help I need. I am asking for prayers and encouragement. Could you specifically pray that God will lead me to just the right people who can help? Can you pray for Jeremy to have wisdom and patience as he walks with me? Can you pray for my children, that they will have what they need and be well cared for as I seek to get better? Ive also been struggling with ridiculous guilt for getting to this point. Its so weird. Since when can anyone hold everything together all the time? Please pray that I will have peace and comfort. Many of my struggles revolve around the unfixable situation of Glorias life. After a decade...I feel defeated. I feel lost and I am angry that I have put all I am into this...and its still a losing battle. I cant explain how hard it has been to watch my own child slowly deform over the years. Her limbs, bent at strange angles, her back supported by titanium rods just to keep her internal organs from getting crushed. A pump in her abdomen bathes her spinal column in Baclofen to relax spastic muscles. And yet she spasms...and shakes and is on more heavy meds than shes ever been on. And I wonder what else can I do? I have exhausted myself looking for answers, and hope. But none of the help is ever enough for her. And the feelings of hopelessness are crushing me. Its hard to explain it fully. Its complicated. I can hardly think straight...every time I try to unwind...a machine starts beeping or she needs something. Even when she is doing well, my other kids still need me. The phone is ringing, someone needs to come by from one of the various health care agencies. I say no as often as possible, yet its not enough. I am exhausted and hurting deeply. I know that I cant do this alone. I need all the love and care and prayers I can get. Please dont be offended if I cant hang out, though. Lately, I just cant. Anyway, thank you for listening and praying. I want to get well. I dont know what that will entail. I will do whatever it takes. I believe God is with me...even though I cant feel him right now. Please pray that I would hear his voice and experience his peace and healing.
Posted on: Sun, 27 Jul 2014 00:11:12 +0000
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