And now my grandma is telling me that I should study upstairs instead of in my room so Im not distracted by my costuming stuff. None of my family understands that without something to distract me while I study, I retain no information and chances are Im going to break down from anxiety halfway through. Sewing is therapeutic to me and helps me keep my anxiety in check. Drawing did that too, but since my tablet is out of commission until I get a new pen, I cant really do much with that. Then if I say something about that I know Ill just get responses about what a load of bullshit that is and how I just need to focus on my studying. The problem is that studying DOESNT work for me. I studied almost 24/7 last year and still failed a class, got a D in another, and had to drop out of another class. I have reading comprehension problems, so I have to listen to tutorials or lectures or something to even understand half of what Im trying to learn. The game programming class is the only one Im having trouble with, but its dragging me down HORRIBLY It doesnt help that its nearly impossible to find online tutorials on this because the software were using is COMPLETELY outdated. Half the terms were using are completely different than in newer versions, so thats out. And there are no tutors in my school that have anything to do with computer classes in general, so thats out, too. I have no idea what to do but this stress is getting to be too much for me... The only thing I can do at this point is just stress out and hope some miracle comes along to help me with this because honestly Im just stuck and on a downward spiral into failing my classes, disappointing my family, and falling into another slump.
Posted on: Wed, 24 Sep 2014 01:30:10 +0000