Angry at God Part 2- Ive learned a lot on my journey so far about my relationship with God but in all honesty Im still a little mad. Im not all the way out of that anger yet and found myself talking about it to my therapist this last session. Wendy suggested I read a book called The Shack by William P. Young. It is a fictional story about a man whose daughter is kidnapped while on his watch. They never find any remains of the little girl but they do find signs of her murder in an abandoned shack. Mack (the father in the book) finds himself angry and pulling away from God after this tragedy. One day he receives a letter from God asking Mack to meet him at the same Shack where they suspect his daughter was killed. It is a chance for him to ask God all the questions he has and from what I have read so far he receives some pretty profound answers. This one really hit me hard and has had me thinking about it ever since (probably because Ive often thought the same things as Mack): “Mack, just because I work incredible good, out of unspeakable tragedies, doesn’t mean I orchestrate the tragedies. Don’t ever assume that my using something means I caused it or that I needed it to accomplish my purposes. That will only lead you to false notions about me. Grace doesn’t depend on suffering to exist, but where there is suffering you will find grace in many facets and colors.” Whenever I hear of something unspeakably sad or heart breaking I have heard others mummer Why would God allow that? and Id be lying if I said I have not had those thoughts myself. I find myself in these tragedies forgetting the power of choice we all posses and how we as individuals can choose to fight for good or evil. God cannot intervene in every evil situation and make the evil cease to exist because he simply cannot take away our power to choose. Just like he cannot make the evil cease, he cannot make the good happen with out us choosing to look to him and share it. Just like Mack, I have found myself pulling away from God because I felt God orchestrated my life to be hard. I wallowed in my not enough, broken world and blamed God for it. God couldnt change my vision until I sought him out and started asking Him directly the hard questions that have been destroying me. I had to make the choice to share the good that came from my ugly and I had to share the ugly to get to the good and seeking God is what started the transition from dark to light. God will refine us and make us better but it is our choice to let him. My friends, we all have ugly, broken and jacked up. The ugly that can consume and define us BUT just know the choice is and will always be yours on what you choose to do with that ugly. You can let it define you or you can let it refine you. You can let the ugly work for darkness or you can let it work for light- the choice is yours to make. If you are questioning God and find yourself pulling away try seeking God first. Ask him the questions so you can make the choice and then MAKE THE GOOD HAPPEN!
Posted on: Sun, 22 Jun 2014 17:11:05 +0000
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