Are you surviving Gods will? As I was driving the other day, i caught the end of a line in a song...all I heard was surviving Gods will. As I ran that through my mind, my first thought was, well, if your in Gods will you dont have to survive it and then I thought about my life and Lee dying and said yep, I am surviving Gods will you see, my will would have left Lee here to suffer with the rest of us; my will would not have allowed him to die, I would have messed everything up because my will is selfish and based on how things effect me and my family. Do you get where Im coming from? Let me try to explain. I was talking with an acquaintance the other day and she expressed how sorry she was about my husband. She then said, well, I believe everything happens for a reason. I stood there for a few seconds not sure if I should share what I was thinking, but the Holy Spirit prompted me and so I did. I told her, well, I have a theory. If we REALLY believe that our purpose here on earth is to Glorify God and build His Kingdom then its not all about my tiny piece of the world. You see, most of the time, we only see how a circumstance effects us, we are not able to see the big picture; but God does. I went on to tell her that, God didnt kill Lee, however, He allowed his death to happen. Unlike we humans, God can see our entire life; our past, our present and our possible future. I believe that God loved Lee SO much, that He looked at Lees life and said, ok, right here, at this moment, this is when Lees life will glorify Me the most and build My Kingdom. I am certain that God even looked at me, Lees girls and others that were close to Lee and knew we would hurt, however, He also knew He would be sufficient in the midst of our pain and be glorified further. Do I miss Lee? Heavens yes!! I miss him every moment of every day. But you know what? There is comfort in knowing that his life mattered. That God answered the prayer that I heard Lee pray many many times, Lord, use my life to glorify You! There is comfort in knowing that Lee was rescued! The struggles that he faced here are no more. He is healed and free! Lee loved that song by Mercy Me; I can only imagine...and as I sit here thinking about Lee seeing Jesus for the first time, I smile. Knowing Lee, I can imagine that for the first time ever, Lee Lewis had no words as he stood in awe of his Savior. Lee probably smiled that huge contagious smile that we all know and love and whispered, Thank you Jesus.....then maybe, as all of the cares of this world slipped away through the tears that Christ wiped away; Lee looked around and said; Im home. Love, Meredith
Posted on: Mon, 11 Nov 2013 12:09:36 +0000
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