As a teacher, I am reflective, so in reflecting on the past year of my life, I know how far I have come. This time last year I was in a very dark place and it seemed to only get worse as time went on. With the help of many amazing people in my life, I was able to get through it and also to become a better, more mature, and wiser person. Without the many positive influences and people who stuck by me no matter what, I would still be in that very dark place. I always thought if anything ever happened to my mom I would not be able to survive, but I have proved myself wrong. Living without my beautiful mother is still heartbreaking every day. On most days she crosses my mind a million times. Sometimes less, and sometimes more, but she is always there. Her lessons, her laughter, how she would always tell me to quit my whining, her compassion and the way that she was always there for me, especially to talk to on my drive home after a long day. I miss her and I miss her voice and I miss our conversations. I am sad that she will not be there at my wedding, and I am sad she will never meet her grandchildren. But the lessons and memories resonate with me all the time and I know my life will never be the same without her. I have learned so much. I have learned to be patient with myself in my grief and in other aspects of my life. I have learned to never give up and realized that sometimes just getting through your day is a huge accomplishment and something to be thankful for. I have learned that love lasts, even when a person is no longer with you. I have learned who the true people in my life are and I am thankful for them every day.
Posted on: Fri, 17 Oct 2014 01:06:08 +0000
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