At approximately 4:05 p.m. Ruth Ward the Wife, Mother, Sister, Daughter and Lover passed away four years ago today. She touched so many hearts that many of us will have a hole in our hearts today. She was blessed with so many good friends and aquaintances. I will always remember the day. I was suppose to be working in my home office but found myself with Ruth and the kids. I made a post on caringbridge.org that I felt the end was near. Her breathing was labored. The kids were all there taking turns holding her hand. Just then the door bell rang. At the door was Dave Wolfe delivering a beautiful bouquet of flowers. Dave asked how Ruth was doing. Before I could answer one of the kids approached, tapped me on the shoulder and said She was gone. Dave immediately broke down in tears. The flowers were from my brother Mike. I know Ruth could see and smell the flowers. I made a few phone calls. The people were on their way to pick up the body. I stayed with Ruth while the kids took a break and went for a walk. I couldnt understand that she was just here on this earth and now gone. It didnt mean that she never existed just that her active life would now turn to memories of her life. I was dwelling on how the kids and I would do with her gone from our lives. Later I realized that she would never be out of our lives. I was so busy wondering what would happen to us that I forgot to think what was happening to Ruth. When she travelled to heaven was it a deal that you walk through a doorway? Did she ride to heaven on a cloud with angels? Did she look down on us and cry? Did her family greet her in Heaven? Did God tell her why she died at such a young age? Maybe Ruth already knew. I wont know the answers to the questions until we meet again. When we meet again I can hold her in my arms, look into her eyes and know we will never be separated again. I will be able to see the immense love in her eyes for me and the kids, and Grand Kids. Sometimes I can feel her presence. For a while starting last year things would fall on the floor from places that made it almost impossible to fall. The kids said that things would fall from the piles of stuff on the table surfaces. Some things shouldnt fall but did. Maybe Ruth was giving me a little pay back. Lord knows I earned it. I miss Ruth very much. I sometimes feel lonely for a companion. I miss holding her hand when we walked. I miss the Spooning when I came to bed even though she gave me the elbow for waking her up. I miss the hugging. Not your every day hugging but Christmas time hugging where the hug meant peace on earth. Hugging when the phone rings and the person on the other end says you have cancer. That was a power hug that by God we a going to beat this thing together; and the last hug before she is gone from this earth. I honor you today, love you more than before, remember all of the camping trips with the kids, remembering all of the special days when our kids and Grand Kids were born. Today I see you face so clear that I almost feel you. I will love you today, tomorrow, and forever. Miss you Ruth.
Posted on: Tue, 24 Jun 2014 20:12:17 +0000
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