At the moment Im having a pretty hard time with all the media attention regarding Robin Williams. Say a prayer for me. Here is my tangent... Don’t judge those closest to Robin Williams for being uncaring or unloving. For over the past year, I have dealt with the grief, anger, sadness, and guilt of being the last person to hug and talk to someone who committed suicide. The most unbelievable and surreal moment in my life was the phone call from the police at work to tell me my friend, Randy was dead. If it were not for the loving convincing peace and forgiveness of God, I would not be here today with the demons I have dealt with regarding my friend’s death. In the past year, I have had friends leave me, turn on me, and just ignore me like I should be fine and without a problem. I have a problem… I fight every day to wake up and find a reason to live. With thoughts and memories haunting me I didn’t try hard enough. I didn’t say the right thing or I said all the wrong things. Many saw only the comedian of the man I knew. Where I got to know him and knew not only his comedic side but the demons that tormented him. My problem is that society only sees what they want to see and ignores the part which is never pretty. It’s the side of life we all contend with but there are a few who are overwhelmed and get to a place where they are swallowed up by a darkness which they cannot break free from. Those who understand the darkness are only those who have experienced this darkness and torment. This darkness I have not experienced... I know this darkness swallowed a man I dearly loved. Be careful what you say...
Posted on: Tue, 12 Aug 2014 19:43:00 +0000
Trending Topics
Recently Viewed Topics
© 2015