BE AWARE LONG POST LOL. Massive Thank You for all your support love n hugs sent by comments, pms n txs it gave me alot of strength n im really grateful. Thank you Charlotte Crane n Jenny Bailey for being firm & kicking me off fb last night and looking after all 12 groups n auction. Made me smile seeing you banning everyone from pm me for support lol. I just have those to reply to not in groups who come through from Angel Wings so bare with me. I rarely talk about my losses as I need to hide it to be strong to cope with what I do daily. However as we are raising awareness of pregnancy loss this month I thought I may share just a wee glimpse of baby loss heartache. Oct 2nd will always be painful. After my first loss a few yrs earlier I then had to go through the infertility route very invasive times. My triplets were clomid babies n so extra special. Their dad decided not to come to scan so I took my best friend Rose who her daughter Marie Magiera is very special to me now n I was fortunate to be at birth of her twin girls yrs later. I saw three beautiful heartbeats even tho very shocked. Two in one sac & one on own. I went oct 2nd by which time very obviously pregnant for my second scan n devastated to learn that the two together one had passed away by missed mc which means no symptoms so total shock. Told the idential twin was poorly n wouldnt survive. My world feel apart. But the single baby girl Megg was strong. I ended up going into early labour at 21wks n ended up in hospital. It was a very scary pregnancy n mainly bed rest, every two wks Id have scan n see megg n beth did well n fought. With surprise to everyone I ended up nearly two wks over due n had to be induced. Beth had by this time passed away so in just 4hrs 20 I delivered a very stubborn strong Megg n sadly my beautiful Bethany. So every birthday is very bittersweet. I developed severe endometriosis and manage to have multiply pregnancies but never kept any over 16wks. My biggest pain what I struggle with even now is seeing pregnant ladies it kills me. I can hold a newborn baby no problem but bumps n scans are pain. However now my baby is Angel Wings. I have met amazing people some who have become my closest friends. We have 12 private groups with around 1000 members covering all aspects of baby child loss for parents grandparents siblings aunts etc. We have our own merchandise n jewellery made free by an angel mum. Our Angel Wings page last Oct 10th reached 1000 likes n this oct 10th we are on target to reach 7000. We are here. We will not stay silent. Our children babies did exist. We will break the silence xx
Posted on: Fri, 03 Oct 2014 08:41:51 +0000
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