CHAPTER I wish…. I always wanted him to know something I wished he’ll understand. I wish he could have understood….. I can just wish. While sitting alone in my room several thoughts always come in my mind related to “us” yes US. I always wanted him to know what I feel. whenever I don’t feel comfortable in telling anything on phone I ended up with writing a piece of matter in the form of text and just send him. But there were always few things which left unsaid. While thinking all these stuffs I opened up my diary and started… You know what behavior of yours hurt me the most its when u start arguing or shouting for no reason, its when you don’t say love you and cut the call, its when u say “I know you don’t love me its all fake” its when you take revenge of any thing I did unintentionally, its when you provoke me for no reason, its when u fight and just say “go away I cant tolerate all these I want to call off this relationship”. But you know what inspite of all these “whens” I know you love me and I know you cant live without me. Its been 8 months of our relationship with lots of fights with lots of love(I think ;) ) with lots of teasing ,10 meatings, waiting, planning, shouting and all and you know what you are the best thing happened with me. I know you are irritating as I often say. I wish you were here. sometimes I feel LDR is such a rubbish thing why I have accepted to be in it but now I am in it I don’t want to step back and neither I want to step forward I just want to be constant and want to see destiny’s next plan. I just want to hold this time with you and this is the best possible thing just “hold up” its just like someone stopped me. I standing on a shore and watching the movement of the waves its either they will take me with them or left me as I am and till then I want to feel them….. I am not a writer but you know what u have made me a tinge of it. I wish I can tell you all these. I wish I can be with you in some unknown place just you and me. i want to feel how it looks when you rest head on the shoulder of one you love. I often miss these things. I want to bunk my classes just for a movie with you. I want you to sing “HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHONA” not on a video call but right down to my hostel at 12 in the night on my b’day. I want to hug you whenever I want you to sit beside me and listen all my non sense and stupid jokes and never ending talks and give all the expressions which I always missed because of phone. I want you to be with me when I step out at 8 in the night. I want you to cook all those things which u make and send pictures. I don’t want any collage I want to stand right near to you and want to take all the selfies and pictures. I want to stand in the crowded bus with you and want you to kiss me when nobody watches…… I know all these are not possible. I just want to wish distance will never separate us. I don’t want to be a victim of bad LDR. By this I closed my diary and waiting for his call. - Aakanksha Jain (Reader)
Posted on: Tue, 06 Jan 2015 07:30:00 +0000
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