Chapter 92. I read the rest of the letter and there was nothing much except the same apology in different ways. Certain lines caught my attention. Its said I know Joshua will keep you safe. Ukhala ngenkani kodwa. Ngimtshelile ukth ngasenkanini wafuza umama wakho. Ngiyazi naye unolaka kodwa umlalele mtanami, uyayazi into ayenzayo. Uzokuvikela kukho konke. Ngamqasha ngokwazi. Ngiyazi uzophatheka kabi uma uzwa ukth waqashwa yimi, cha mtanami angimqashelanga ukuthi akuthande ngamqashela ukuthi akuvikele. Uyena owakuthanda futhi nalapho ngiyajabula ngoba ngiyazi ukuthi uhleli nendoda ekuthandayo futh ezokuvikela. I read these lines over and over again. I dont know what was more pain. Finding out that Joshua was being paid to risk his life for me not that he did it because he loved me. I was still sitting there and crying when Joshua walked in. Joshua: Im sorry Me: You knew everything but you still pretended not to know. Joshua: Ngakhetha ukungakutsheli Thandeka because I didnt want you to think Im doing all this because of the money. Me: What else then if its not money? You dont expect me to believe its out of love, we both know its not. Joshua: Then its out of what? Its not for cash because I have enough money. Me: How much did he offer you? Joshua: Its not important. Me: I want to know. Joshua: I didnt take it. By the time he approached me I was already looking out for you. Me: And that will be when? Joshua: Your first car accident. He came to see you wafica mina. Thats when we talked. Me: Thats when he hired you to pretend that you love me kanti all along its just a job. Joshua: No. Thats when he asked me if I knew someone who could be your guard and I offered my services. Not because I wanted the money but simple because Id rather have you with me kunokuth kubekhona indoda enye eduze kwakho Me: You obsess with me. Joshua: If loving someone like I love you is an obsession then yes Im obsess. Me: That R1,5mil is a payment from my father to you. Joshua: Yes and Im not going to take it. I protected you because thats what a man should do for a woman he loves not because he expects a payment. I was staring at Joshua as he spoke. I dont know whether what I was seeing was another well cooked pot of lies or the real Joshua telling me the real truth. After being fed so many lies its not easy to see the truth. Me: Is it still not safe? Joshua: Its safe now. Me: I can go back to my own place? Joshua: You leaving me? Me: Yes Joshua: Awusangithandi? Me: Love has nothing to do with it. I need a space. Joshua: To do what? Me: To breath, to deal with everything. Joshua: You can do that here. Me: You know thats not possible. Joshua: Ill move out then. Me: Its your house. Joshua: I love you Thandeka. Me: As much as I dont want to say this but I love you too ukth nje angisazi Joshua. Its too much. Everything that I know and believe it turns out to be lies. Joshua: But you know that you love me. I love you. Me: Okay. Ill move out, go back to work and go back to my life then we will try again Joshua: What about your mother? You have to see her. Me: What for? She didnt want me. Why should I want her? Joshua: Because she is your mother. You have to see her. Me: What for. She choose her husband over me. Joshua: You just angry. Me: No. Im tired, I had a long day. Id like to sleep. Joshua: But awukadli nje. Ill go get you some food Me: Im not hungry. Joshua: You have to eat. You passing out and that cant be good. Me: Nothing is good in my life. Joshua: Ngiyakucela sthandwa sami. Ngisho ungadla izipuni ezimbili. he got up and left. I got under the blankets and tried to sleep. Joshua came back with food. Joshua: Ngicela udle I sat up and took the food ngadla. He sat there and watched. Ngadla ngaqeda. Me: Done I gave him the plate. Joshua: Thank you My phone rang ngayibheka ukth ikhala keph ngayithola. It was Lindiwe. Me: Hai Lindiwe: I hate her. I could hear she was crying. Me: Where are you? Lindiwe: I dont know. I was just driving nje. How could she? What kind of a mother does that to her daughter? Me: You confronted her? Lindiwe: I had to. All this time you were my best friend kanti you are my sister. The pain you went through ngenxa yakhe. I never thought I would say this but I hate my mother. she cried harder. Me: I understand that you angry but its not safe out there. Drive back home sisi. Im coming tomorrow. Lindiwe: I dont even know where I am. Me: What do you see there? Lindiwe: Trees. Me: Drive back to the city. Lindiwe: I think I drove past the town 2 or 3 hours ago. I was too angry. Joshua: Your car must have a tracker. Lindiwe: Is that Joshua? Me: Yes. Let me put you on loud speaker ngoba vele uyayizwa lendaba. I put the phone on loud speaker. Joshua: You car must have a tracker. Lindiwe: It does. Joshua: You insured? Lindiwe: Yes. Joshua: Okay. I will help you
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