Chris, firstly, i would like thanks again for the weather, its rainning heavily at 4am and the weather was so good since(exactly) the working times start, the whole afternoon was so cool & winding, malaysia really appreciate, thank you so much US Chris, do u still remember our conversation on saturday, i do tell u i feel unwell recently, fever, headache, whole body pain and i can feel youre not happy to hear this word fever as the gift had given, please believe me i dont mean to blame okay, today is monday, is not my working day, again, i try my best to help myself to get help from my friends, i phone to Reno even, but i still fail, i just cant help myself to get the luggage, i admit i need money, but most importantly i do want u to feel happy because you sincerely want me to receive these present, but i just cant afford even only rm2300, i have no saving since i didnt work for about half year because of the pressure of the issue, also because the side-effect of the medicine which caused me unconfident to work. Chris, do u know how long times i suffer this depression, i dont mind let u know my history, its since i am in primary school, i just felt uncomfortable, maybe because my mum do take depression medicine during her prenancy, i just cant relax, i can graduate from CPU course at Taylors college all because the effort that god bless me, here, i would like to thanks my english teacher, Ms Isobel of British Council for her praise of my effort, she gives me A which i really really happy, i still keep the certificate Still remember after CPU, i worked in Singapore, its 1998, i was so lucky, i got a better paid job as an inventory clerk in a good company, its Kian Ann Engineering, the salary is S$1000 monthly, and thats a lot of OT which i could earn more, the job is so easy, just key in & key out the stocks, but i just cant do it concentrately, just because i had sleeping problem, i cant sleep well for half year during my half year stayed there, can u imagine the suffering, i had to resign, the company is so kind, they gives me chance,2 weeks for rest but i just cant cope, i really lose this golden chance I was admit to Lam Wah Ee hospital when back to malaysia, from that time, i start to take medicine to help sleeping until now, anyway, thats a year i succeed to fight this problem, i didnt take the medicine for 1 year, i can sleep well, unluckly i take medicine again when i had problem with my ex-boyfriend, now i really really learn the word take care so, now i had found my new medicine which at least i have confident to work, i wish really can enjoy the feeling of relax stablely without medicine So, Chris, maybe u just present me medicine that can help me die peacefully when i really really suffer one day, blind, cancel, stroke which i really really scare Anyway, Chris, thanks for being my friend, Thanks US again......, youre really really GREAT
Posted on: Mon, 03 Nov 2014 12:46:08 +0000