Coming out of a long depression really is like coming into light at the end of the tunnel. I think most people just dont understand how serious and debilitating the condition is, I know a lot of people who thought I was just being weak or immature about life, but you could never understand the constant pain unless you experience it yourself, it goes so deep and ruins everything. I was once so miserable that I hated seeing other people be happy, I found it impossible to feel glad for even those closest to me. Seeing people be happy and succeed actually made me angry. I was always very uninterested in anything people had to say to me. I actually used to avoid a certain person I know, because they would always greet me and want to engage in conversation, thinking that I would avoid that person is really messed up now that I look back on it. I honestly hated nearly everything. It was like a slow acting poison coursing through my veins. I never tried the pharmaceutical route to help me, it always scared me. The only thing that really helped me was seeing a friend of mine running down the road because hes always been a naturally gifted athlete and I thought it looked fun and I wanted to try my hand in it. From there on, I ran down the road with him once, and then a few more times and then I eventually branched out on my own. I think that participating in such an activity flooded me with the good chemicals of my brain and helped me develop a healthy ego and overall turned me into a better person. Im forever thankful that I found a passion that slowly changed my way of thinking and overall made me feel better. Feeling better has led me to other opportunities in my life within the past few months that I know I wouldnt have gotten if I was still drowning in my own sorrow. Its such a relief that I can stop for a moment and think to myself that my life is awesome I think this quote is appropriate for all of this... nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it aint about how hard you hit. Its about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward. How much you can take and keep moving forward
Posted on: Sun, 20 Jul 2014 06:22:21 +0000
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