DO YOU EVER FEEL LIKE LIFE IS PASSING YOU BYE, HELPING EVERYONE AROUND YOU WHILE YOU PATIENTLY WAIT??? Well Ive been blind so many years of my life, feeling jealous of everyone elses blessings, while not seeing any good come of my life. We all make choices throughout our lives which in return play a role as to how our lives end up. To be honest I still hold so much pain when it comes to my kids and that whole situation, how can so many bad parents have their kids and one ONE mistake on my part costs me my reason for living, not to mention pain and suffering my kids endure daily. I can look back and blame everyone, hate myself, hate everyone involved, but it doesnt change anything. I look at my four beautiful daughters and see the strength past their pain, the anger behind their smiles, the tears they replace with laughter and I begin to feel overwhelmed. I am guilty of loving my children unconditionally, never putting anything nor anyone above them, yet every night a phone call about their day replaces the hugs, kisses, and cuddles we shared. These beautiful girls are my greatest blessing from the life I thought never blessed me. I know someday, sometime, someway they will be back home with mommy which helps me stay sane, but it wont be soon enough. Ive lived with them their whole lives but in order to have them back I had to move away into my own home so I can regain the life we had together before my life turned upside down, but being away Im missing so much. Although I can see them and they can stay with me anytime, I want all their time. I want my life back. God has been good to me shining his light when my world becomes dark and Im grateful for him. Every part of my being wanted to hate God, and blame him, my faith was pushed to the limit and I came out on top. Every now and then my faith is tested, but I have faith in my faith and God will always guide me in the right direction! I just want everyone to know my daughters are the most amazing, strong, intelligent, and beautiful girls and they are my inspiration and motivation helping mold the better woman Im becoming!!! I may not be perfect, but no matter how many times I get knocked down, I get back up stronger and try again! No matter how bad the storm is, know that theres a rainbow around the corner!
Posted on: Wed, 10 Sep 2014 14:05:49 +0000
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