Day 187. I hope everyone has had a good weekend. I had a pretty good weekend. I made it through without using, so I would have to say that my weekend was a successful one. I am sorry that I have not been posting as much as I used to. I am going to start maybe only posting every other day or a couple times per week. It is not because I do not enjoy posting everyday. It is because I have been clean for six months now and I feel like I am ready to move forward onto the next chapter of my life. I cannot do it if I am constantly reliving my past daily. In my future post, I am going to mention the word Meth a lot less, for I want it to slowly lose its place in my vocabulary. I will not ever forget my past, but I do want to move on from it. Addiction will always be a part of me, it nearly killed me. By getting clean, I turned a self induced life sentence into a life lesson. I made many mistakes in my past, but feel like I have redeemed myself and can walk with my head held high with no regrets. I have gained something during these last six months that I never had before, and that was self confidence. I learned how to love myself again. Now since loving myself, I can truly love others. I used to be so angry and now the anger has left me. I feel a sense of peace that I have never felt before. I want to say thank you to all the people who stood and walked along side me on this road to recovery. Another thing that I have learned is to never ever judge others for what they do. Because every single person has a reason for being the way they are. And addicts never set out to become addicts. My wishes for the future are that other people with share my compassion and try and find a way to help other addicts, perhaps by trying to recognize that addiction is a disease and not simply a carless choice. There are many people that can be helped if only they felt like they had someone to talk to, or ask for help without the fear of being looked down upon. Not all addicts are bad people in fact many of them are good people that have found themselves in a bad situation. Please remember that when you see someone suffering with addiction. I am so glad I have been given a second chance at life and this time I will give it my all. I will never forget how hard it was to get to the place I am now. I am ready to move forward and on with my life, a life that I will value in a whole new way. I will not allow myself to be a victim ever again. I will not give up or give in. I realize my life is worth fighting for, and that I do not have to settle for anything less than I feel I deserve.
Posted on: Mon, 07 Apr 2014 01:23:42 +0000
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