Dear VFV, Im really struggling with something at the minute and I really need some advice and some help because I just feel completely lost and I dont know what to do. Okay, so my church leader is moving away at the end this month, but not just somewhere else in the country, which would be bad enough, but to the complete other side of the world. Im really struggling to come to terms with the fact that soon shell be gone and she wont be there anymore, she wont be there on Sundays, she wont be there on youth night, she wont be around to chat to and laugh with and talk to, well be in completely different time zones so I wont even be able to message her and chat on Facebook without waiting hours for a reply. Shes the first and only leader Ive ever had that Ive grown to love and admire and she is my role model and the woman I look to in the church for who and how I should be. Shes a beautiful example of how I should be. I dont have a good relationship with my mother and Im not close to any other women in my family or in my church group (which is very small anyway) so shes the one person I look up to and go to with any problems and the one person I trust completely. Because of the size of the group, anyone else that i spoke to would just tell my parents because theyre all friends more with them and Im just another naïve youth with no idea of the world or life in their eyes. Theres no one else I could look up to…When she goes I dont really know how much longer Ill last in the church. My testimony isnt sufficiently strong enough to support me on my own. I dont feel good enough or strong enough to pray for help and guidance. I dont even feel worthy to ask for help from Heavenly Father. Good leaders are the only reason Ive kept on going to church if Im completely honest. …Ive thought of maybe telling her how I feel and talking with her but I dont want to give her the burden of feeling guilty about moving because of me and I also feel embarrassed at being so needy and dependent on her. I just dont know what Ill do without her. Its just really getting me down. Nothings going right and nothing seems to be working out. Im failing my exams, Im losing my testimony and the feelings of the spirit, I have no positive familial relationships and my one support is moving far away. I know this is a really silly thing to get upset over and I do feel a bit stupid to get caught up on it but I just feel completely alone and beat and I just feel like giving up. What should I do?
Posted on: Thu, 15 May 2014 02:45:00 +0000
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