December 1st will forever be in my mind, as that day is a blur, - TopicsExpress

December 1st will forever be in my mind, as that day is a blur, bits and pieces of that day will be in my brain. But the most heart wrenching will be the sobs coming out of my Aaron, I dont remember exactly at what point, but I remember his little arms around me sobbing uncontrollably! I remember some of my sisters, my mom, a nurse with yellow on her uniform. A tall doctor, I know I woke up but I dont remember what happened or what I said or for that matter what anyone said. I remember my sons, standing by either side, Markie, Richard, Chito, vaguely, was I dreaming? Did we have a conversation? Later at home I remember hugs, goodbyes, then once more Aarons sobs, his crying, not wanting to leave, Johanna crying, nothing more, someone kissed me on the cheek! Im sorry, so sorry, I wish I understood the why, the what, the how!!! One thing I never, ever let my kids leave without a blessing to each and everyone before their journey, I failed them! Miserably! Im sorry my babies but here while I rest, trying to figure out an explanation to what happened I send you each and every one of you a blessing, from Johanna down to little Sammy all each one of you!