December used to be my favorite month. It was the month of my - TopicsExpress

December used to be my favorite month. It was the month of my birthday and the month of vacations. December 2012 was even more special it was supposed to mark my sisters wedding but things didn’t go as we planned.25 december changed everything.It turned into a traumatic December that probably many of us wont ever get over with.Time has flown by December 2014 is here but all of the memories are crystal clear in each of our minds. There is not a single day that passes by without flashbacks or thought of you shahzeb. nothing ever seems to fade away.It is indeed true that memories leave a mark for life time.Blood relations can never be separated because they are part of your heart, mind and soul.Nothing can part you from your loved ones not even death.Because death just takes the person to the other world but people remain part of our lives till our last breathe. My dear brother shahzeb khan, he was special. He lived a life everyone would want to live. Each day was a celebration on its own, each day worth a million day. Death does not take away from you,someone who you love so dearly, it merely presents us the harsh reality of not having our loved one in their physical presence One does not need to differentiate their inner chaos and outer appearance when missing that loved one, it simply becomes a part of you and the need for words to be said or tears to flow because the one who has passed away simply resides in your heart and will always remain. Shahzeb Khan was shot dead on the night of 25th December. This innocent boy had to lose his life for no reason. He had not picked a fight, he had not caused trouble. He was only on his way back from his eldest sisters wedding reception. This boy never disappointed us. He never gave up, or let his family down. We all loved him so dearly. And seeing him just moments before, smiling and losing him moments later really broke us. It was unimaginable and still so surreal to us that this vital member of our family has left us. Who gave them the right to kill such an amazing brother, son, friend? no body. We stood outside that emergency room. The moments of terror and trauma. The pain of losing you my other half. Losing our only brother. A brother who was an angel and guardian. I remember each and every bit of that night so well that it shakes me. I remember all those faces standing there confused crying not believing what had happened. I would probably never forget it and i hope nobody ever goes through the pain of losing their loved ones like this.It shook our family and his friends immensely. Nobody could ever imagine losing their only brother on their sisters wedding, their cousin they grew up with, the friend who stood by others but it happened.Nobody could imagine you wouldn’t be able to file a FIR even though your dad’s in the police but this happened too.Nobody coud imagine protesting on the road after losing their family member.People gathered up stood up for our Shahzeb.And we cant ever thank them enough for standing beside us when our lives had toppled over.Those teenagers who people call burger stood up without fearing for their lives and took a stand against what they felt was unjust. Shahzeb was extremely lucky. The kind of friends he has everyone would wish for. I always wondered what is shahzeb always doing outside.. i had seen some of his friends, many of them i met for the first time on his death.I still remember how they stood outside our house for days after shahzeb departed, refusing to go home. it seemed that their lives had also reached the same stage as ours-sadness. they had lost someone they loved... Now when i see them i have come to realize that we are related to shahzeb through blood but his friends were his second family. In the kind of situation we are in today many have left our side.yet all of his friends have been here since the beginning. they come and visit shahzebs mom every second day. Who does that? the same so called burger bachey... they have no obligation to do that yet they are doing it. they are our strength and in each and every one of them we see shahzeb.I have lost a brother but in return Allah has blessed me with so many others. Yes we are not related by blood but I feel the same way for each n every one of you. In years ahead, we will not get to see Shahzeb becoming something. Yet i pray to see each of you succeed and see all the happiness that Shahzeb didnt get to see. In the end I must say that it takes alot of courage to stand up for a cause. it isnt easy to stand up against individuals with huge power and money. I salute you dear brothers and your families for letting you be here. Sometimes I think about all that was there and how life was different.In life it is very important to be grateful.I remember you telling me hojayega tension kia hae? And now I miss hearing that.Life isnt easy shazu trust me.I miss having you around.I miss having that positive carefree energy that helped me cope up with alot of things in life.I guess we all get what is written for us and nobody can take that from us. After your death Shahzeb I think we were all too broken but when Allah takes something from you he blesses you with patience.Also going through islam I realized how Allah had chosen you as the blessed one which gave me a lot of peace. The Prophet (pbuh) said: “The martyr (shaheed) has seven blessings from Allaah: he is forgiven from the moment his blood is first shed; he will be shown his place in Paradise; he will be spared the trial of the grave; and he will be secure on the Day of the Greatest Terror (the Day of Judgement); there will be placed on his head a crown of dignity, one ruby of which is better than this world and all that is in it; he will be married to seventy-two of al-hoor al-‘iyn; and he will be permitted to intercede for seventy of his relatives.” [Narrated by al-Tirmidhi] I thank Allah for chosing him to be bestowed with shahadat.2 years hadve passed and I feel time doesnt heal the wounds although i feel instead it deepens them. I would like you all to remember my brother SHAHZEB KHAN in your prayers always.I hope my only brother gets the highest place in jannat Ameen.I hope you are smiling up their little one because your smile means the world to us shazu.May his family,cousins and friends cope up with loss that has shook them forever.please read surah fatihah for him.JazakAllah!